There is no way I could make sense of this
All these people
All these thoughts
Twisting their way into my reality...
I dont want to be alone anymore
I am scared to be ever again
He has scarred me in a way I will never show
And no body knows...
I'm scared to want but I let myself wander
Only to be rejected again
They never want me like I want them
They never love me...
Want me to be happy, love me to smile
Cradle my feelings in your blood
Protected little child
Thats who i was and who you want me to be...
I don't want to face the world
Not with the reality I chose
Not with the skin I'm in
Find me a fresh start...
All these scars
Slowly burning into me
Slowly hurting me
Slowly killing me
They are all my doing.
It's all my fault...
And that's what hurts the most.
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Written August 29th, 2006
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A friend once told me to always be positive, just to try was a start. I realized it does help to think about what you do have instead of your misgivings. You always told me to look on the bright side of life, and I have so now when I read this poem I wonder where all your happiness has gone?
Things may never be clear to you but in due time a situation sorts itself out or we overcome the problem which it caused us.
And always remember that after something bad comes then something good follows.
Love you mate!
-Mon xoxo -
Aimee, this is beautiful. Your writing is so inspiring, but you write so sadly. All of your friends know none of what happens to you is your fault. People who do that to you deserve to be tortured. You deserve everything in the world! You're such a jumpy person, Aimee, and no one is big enough to go and wreck that. If not for you, then for us. We all love the feelings and love you give off.
Just take into consideration that you'll find some one who loves you more than anyone else ever will, and you'll feel exactly the same way. Plus it will stay that way too
Smile.
Meri. -
Nice poem :-) I'm not often keen on poems structured like this, but you carried it off really well. You made the structure work for your flow and story telling, not just making it quirky for the sake of it like some other writers. Very expressive use of language that tells a really sad story. Well done :-)
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Aimee.. This is amazing! You are such a beautiful writer. I really wish these things didn't happen to you but I spose its part of reality unfortunately. I can feel certain things in this poem and have a sort of an understanding for them. I'm sure its completely different to what you have in your head but hey, thats fine. Anyways, enough of me babbling on!
Hold you head up sweeti!
Em
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