MY DIARY….Final Entry
August 28, 2006
Dear Diary,
Today has to be the most miserable of my life. Yes, I know how many times in all these years have I said that? You know me all to well, don’t you? But really, this has to be the worst. It’s about that girl named, Lori. Oh stop, how many pages have I devoted to her? Hundreds? Thousands? You know her all to well, dear diary.
Remember just a year ago when my heart was so filled with love for her. We would sit across from one another and stare longingly into each other’s eyes. Oh my God, how I loved looking into those eyes! Those emerald green eyes. They sparkled and reached in, fondling and touching my heart. Oh yes, she felt the same. I know she did. That smile and longing came from her as thick as butter spread on a slice of bread. Someone could have thrown a bomb next to us and it wouldn’t have broken our concentration. Those moments made my whole body ache. God, I wanted her so bad…..Then it finally happened. She told her husband she was going shopping and I picked her up in the parking lot. I drove her to that motel. We barely got into the door when we ravished each other. The wetness of her lips. How soft her skin felt. She held me so tight that nothing would have broken her hold. When I entered her, my whole body trembled. Oh she felt so good. Never, ever, dear diary, have I felt something so wonderful as her........
But, then I had to let her go. I couldn’t bear for her to leave her two young boys. They need her more than I do. So I broke it off. Didn’t I, dear diary, it was me, and now you have to listen to me cry…..but not for long.
Today, I sat across from her and we talked. Every time I tried to look into her eyes she would turn and look the other way. Her smile never appeared. Her voice sounded hollow and distant. She wouldn’t answer my questions. I want her back but I can’t have her. The pain in my heart is ripping me apart. The tears just never seem to stopping filling my eyes. I watched her get up from the table and she never looked back. It’s over…….
The half bottle of pills I took two hours ago are starting to take effect. I can barely keep my eyes open…….It’s been nice dear diary to have you as my companion all these years………You’ve been my consistent friend……Your pages always were there waiting for my pen to touch you…..Good bye…..
I hope someone finds this………..
I love you, Lori….I love you….with all….my…..heart.
Author notes
I know, too melodramatic. Right? Sorry, my emotions got the best of me.
Written August 28th, 2006
In a list
A contest entry
- ~Dear Diary~ by -Ink Artist-.
300 points, ended September 4, 2006, 9 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
Comments
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i thought this was wonderful, but i hope it was only for the contest it was entered into... i would hate to think that such talent would go to waste through suicide. fantastic write
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Thank you slipperssun for reading and commenting on My Diary...Final Entry. I'm glad you enjoyed. I wrote it strictly for the contest, (blushing) thanks.
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Thank You for reading. Yes it is hard but suicide is not the solution as protrayed in this poem.
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wanting someone that you know you can't have. Its hard isnt it? For someone you really love and care about. Such a well written piece my friend, may god be with you, keep up the awesome poetry here.
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Thanks Sunshine your comments always mean a lot to me
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Ck my dear, this was lovely. The emotion of a love so deep that you feel you cannot breathe with out it. Then losing that love it's almost like you're gone before the pills kick in...Amazing write ck as always....This is such a sad, yet heartfelt write. I felt everyword. Fantastic write ck...Keep writing...
Sunshine -
Thank you for commenting. This was a very emotional write.
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a real tear-jerker, and heart-string puller
OMG this gave me chills and made me want to cry....it was almost like I was there.....wonderful and so vivid, sad and touching... -
Thank you for reading as always your comments are appreciated. I got a HM for the contest but thanks your praise.
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Wow!!! Another one of ck's amazing writes. I loved the unqiue form of writing here. You dont see much of these forms on Ap. Its nice to see a change. I can feel alot of pain in this piece as each word you wrote grew. There was really alot of meaning behind this piece. You've done a really beautiful job writing this.Keep penning.Cant wait to read more of your wonderful works. Good luck in the contest.( you deserve to win)
God Bless
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Thanks Cynthia for the kind words and comments. Always apprecieated.
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Excellent
WOW!
CK, this is an excellent write.
Don't be so hard on yourself.
It's not melodramtic whatsoever.
You did a great job.
Keep up with the great work.
Keep on penning.
*S* Cynthia -
Thank you Pam for reading and commenting. I really appreciate it.
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To read this today was to feel footsteps crossing over my heart. It is amazing the parallels people follow. A beautiful, heartfelt, entry. So very sad to feel such pain. ~Pam
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Thank you Teresa for reading and your always kind words.
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Excellent with Tears
WOW you always know just how to pour them out.
reachs out and stokes hearts
Roses to you
Teresa -
Thank you very much for your kind comments. I really do appreciate it.
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Breath taking
Seriously I cried like a little sissy. I love it. It was touching, beautiful, totally sinful and most of all scandalous. All those people we love or want and can never have is truly heart breaking. I .. just well... It was amazing I am speachless.
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Thank you Lori for giving this a read and rest assured I will respect your decision in the contest. I had to pick a name for my lover and seeing that this is your contest, why not? I know that's kind of kinky being your big brother but I couldn't resist. Thanks for reading and commenting.
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Wow!! This is an amazing write ck! Not too melodramatic at all. Is that my name I read?! Packed full of feelings. Great flow of longing and desire and yet so tragically sad. The ending in this piece is wrought with pain and sorrow. I love the fact that you included your goodbye to the diary itself. It's very striking. Well written, fabulous write. Thanks for your entry and good luck!
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Thank you for giving this a read and your comments.
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really good! you can never have too much emotion. great job
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