Guess what happened again tonight
There was no point to fight
I cut and burned some more
There was blood all over the floor
I couldn't control the urge
My cutter side had to emerge
I cut 30 times, each bled
That liquid dark shade of red
But no I wasn't even done
As I layed there and watched the blood run
I wiped all the blood away
But more came out anyway
I layed on the floor and cried
Because I could of tired
But no I just gave in
I don't even know where to begin
I walked down stairs, smile on my face
For the pain I had to erase
My mom and dad they can't know
Even though the number of scars does grow
I was still hurting inside
I was strongly thinking about suicide
So I went and opened put that drawer
And again I layed on the floor
I opened up that bottle and dumped them in my hand
This was my how my suicide was planned
I overdosed on tums you see
Look what has become of me
I get worse every time
My thoughts of suicide starting to climb
I'll fight them off as best I can
I just wish this never began
Author notes
Ok not to have people get confused...Yes this really did happen
And for anyone who doesn't know..Tums are Antacids...And like Calcuim tablets...
Written August 27th, 2006
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Amazing
The flow was perfect, rhyming great and the emotions very well expressed. I always know if a poem is wonderful by how I get that sinking feeling in my stomach while reading it. I recoganize your pain. Thank you for sharing. -
i don't know what to say
maybe i'll think of something l8r
CJ -
-hugs- I dont think a hug will help you but why did you do this? I know how bad the urge goes and Im not trying to scream and yell at you but dont you know people would miss you if you commited suicide? I mean I would miss your your AP mom would, and so would your AP sisters. Please dont do this again
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this is fantastic! you read my mind i just did this exactly the same last night, exept i didn't overdose. i can get like this all the time you have writen it so well!! great job, keep it up
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great job
This is certainly a well written poem, and very deep with emotions. I myself went through a dark suicidal phase a couple years ago, where I cut myself and constantly thought about suicide. I'm sorry that you're still going through this. Hopefully writing and your friends will get you through this phase in your life. Good luck with everything. ^_^
~Nikki -
excellent
this was a great poem! i loved it! i can totally relate to this....and i think the best kind of poem to read is one you can relate to. it flowed really well, and the rhyming was awesome....i cant wait to read more of you writing! -
Nice write. Your ryhming was excellent and the flow, flawless. The pain you speak about here really echoes my thoughts on the subject of suicide and cutting. I have written a few poems on these subjects also and as I'm sure you know, it helps ease the pain. Much enjoyed!
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Excellant /Chilling
Very well written, and I hope this is just a dark poem and not your reality. However, if you like you can check out my poem Depression/Transition and comment please.
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