Two Bishops and a River

I need to destroy things
hear the voices in my head
let them scream and tell me that I’m dead
I know it’s not true I can take this
I can do everything
I am talented I have friends
I could dance a thousand miles and not get tired
I am everything you ever want
from someone dancing midnight
you’ll find me destroying the sheets
on the bed that was lying here before

I am all things bright and beautiful
i’m your harlequin puppet on a string
don’t think for one minute I can’t stand on my own
sometimes I need to think a while before speaking
or answering anything you say
I can breathe without the word telling me to
I can live without you
I’m your brightness I’m your darkness
I’m a ballerina dancing lightly
on broken toes always thinking of you
dying like the voices say to me
dolls all wrapped in crimson sheets
and smoking with porcelain cheeks

I need to destroy things
hear the voices in my head
let scream and tell me that I’m dead
paint your face white
tell me all things bright beautiful
so I can scream you are dead to me
I can breathe without the world telling me to
I can live without you

I’ll keep running I’ll keep dreaming
of the day when they finally catch you
and I can think of the gallows building
themselves straighter for you to climb
to the very top and then drop too far
for anyone to catch you
and the voices sing and the voices ring out for peace
but you won’t find it here I am gone too far from you

let’s destroy things
rip up the sheets up
off the bed that was lying here first
before all the world convulses
on pillows mattresses bound in crimson
dolls that dance and spark on fire
I can’t believe the trees are alive after all
and you’re all so cold
keep out of the night and darkness will find you
with claws that rip at the sheets

I destroys things I can listen
to the voices telling me everything
I am stronger now I am brighter
I can sing longer and higher
I can sing longer and higher