Lost in confusion no where to run,
My whole world is coming undone
Tears fall every night,
Because I lost, lost the fight
Tear after tear falls from my eyes,
As I look to the cloud filled skies
Looking for an answer, just a simple clue,
If Only I knew,
I just want to know, why I'm like this,
Sometimes I feel like I don't exist
Why am I lost, depressed all the time,
Why are suicidal thoughts always on my mind
Help me please! Before I help myself,
And take that blade off that shelf
Take out all my anger and pain on my arm,
Oh how my emotions could cause me harm
Too many emotions locked up inside,
The only way out for me is suicide
But when he holds me close and I feel his heart beat,
My thoughts of suicide deplete
That's the only time I feel safe, like nothing could go wrong,
I want to stay in his arms all day long
But that won't happen, sadly it's true,
And the blade I then run too
It's the only other thing that helps my pain,
It's an addiction, like sniffing cocaine
addiction or not, I'm never going to stop,
When sadness comes my way, blood must drop
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Written August 25th, 2006
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Soulfully crafted
You are not alone dispite all the feelings that you have that tell you so. I wont say I feel your pain, but I have the same pain with a diffrent name. I have taken the leap many times and the fact of my existance is a puzzle to me. I thought that I simply had not gotten my full measur of suffering and had to hang around for more. Or maybe the thing I don't want to, more truthfully am afraid to look at is maybe I have something worthwhile to offer. I know that you do. I hope you share this one alot, maybe someone who can't say it will find it helpful
Much Love
ps-to heck with them all I'd rather die laughing than crying- -
I think you mean "addiction" in the second last stanza not "addition". In a spot or two it's obvious the wording is the way it is to make it rhyme rather than because it adds something to the poem but all in all it is a reasonable piece. Very literal in it's interpretation, and your missing a lot of punctuation but it shows your emotions. Keep writing.
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I love it! i know exactly what you meana, you have done a fantastic job. keep up the good work
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Told from a troubled heart
Oh my this is indeed a truly desperate poem of anguish and deep pain, that I can feel with every word you wrote. I understand your pain, and you are not alone in feeling this way. Suicide and cutting are not the answer, neither is relying on somebody else to make you happy the answer either. You have to love yourself first and foremost.
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