From You For You

A parchment of the driest skin
Red rivulets of the darkest hue
Wrapped in an envelope of darkness
A gift from you, and for you
Your own words wrapped in liquid writing
Still dripping from the motions
Filled with a preconceived thoughts
Nothing more than notions
Thoughts feelings all leaving me reeling
Pain blood fear tear its all the same now
Falling crawling bawling at the thought
Hopeful yet desolate some how
Ignored no matter how hard I tried
To pour my heart out and make you see
But no matter your words it makes me think
Youd wish Id go and leave you be
Life Death Pain Pleasure all the same but one is missing
Left behind no matter the season
Sacrifice is the god to which I now worship
Last first nothing now, left with no reason
Pain is known we both know that,
Life sometimes nothing more than breathing
Pleasure lost not to be found anywhere
Death beneath the surface lying there seething
Nothing more than the words left unsaid
All inside tattooed around my head
Things you wouldnt believe no matter how I try
So I lie alone inside my bed
A few word given, a chance to try
One little sentence, not enough but so much more
Six digital words sent from phone to phone
So much more than we both know for me is in store
So these marks left upon the parchment wrapping this corpse
Drawn with the ink that leaked out from inside
Are all I have left that I try to send
From one once a groom to his to be bride
A few questions though
How can you stay mad at me
Im just a clown a nobody
I dont even exist to you
So how can I mean shit to you?
So stop pretending you care whether I laugh or cry
As far as you care I could live or die.
These are just the feelings I get
Sent from you.
Making what I see
For you.