Doesn't Care

She never knew her family
So talks like this did nothing
The counsellor kept talking
About family abuse
About family issues
And all the nameless people
Were engrossed
Except her
She never even wondered
What they were like anymore
She assumed they would
Just be like her
Too overbearing, too paranoid
And she was better off
Living in the foster home
The people there told her
She was lucky she was taken in
They told her she was lucky
To go to this school
With all these friends
She had no friends
They ignored her
Because she had no money
Because she was off the street
Sitting on the floor
She looked to the face beside her
A boy
Attractive
And she tries to catch his eye
He turns to her
She smiles
His face looks dead as he looks
Right through her
Right past her
Like shes not there
Her legs start to shake
But she controls it
She never wanted them
To see she had feelings
She wanted them to think
She didnt care
She had been pretending so long
She started to believe as well
She knew the teachers did
And her carers at the home
They all believed
She looks out the window
And lets her thoughts fly
She thinks of one day
Turning up to school
And the boy next to her
Asks her out
And takes her hand
Dirty from working
Dirty from her past
And loves her
A bird flys past the window
And she imagines its her
Soaring
Flying
Away from all this
And its heaven
But this thought cant last
And she turns back to the empty faces
In the crowded room
And ignoring the whispers
And giggles
She looks back to the counsellor
And pretends she has a family
Pretends shes normal
And it hurts deep down inside
But she doesnt notice
She doesnt care.