Alive

Smiling
Watching her friend
But as her friend turns to leave
Her smile fades into nothing
And her heart is still breaking
She raises her face
And sees an empty grey sky
Reflecting her life back at her
The endless days like this
Pretending to be something
Someone
She will never be
And them
Believing, trusting
That she is fine
She turns and opens her door
Steps into her empty house
The laughing and innocence from her childhood
Seem to bounce and echo off the scratched walls
She slowly steps
And enters her bedroom
Ripped posters hanging off the walls
That she doesnt have the energy to fix
A messed up bed
That hasn't been made in weeks
And her photos
No recent ones
She gave up taking photos
When her life gave up on her
She picks up one of her and her father
Playing soccer in their backyard
She is on his shoulders
Smiling like a goblin
Dressed like a fairy
She sees a single tear hit the glass
And she throws it
Hitting her mirror
All she can hear is the glass
Shattering
She walks over and collapses
The mirror
Was her last bond with herself
And now it was broken
She was broken
She picks up a piece of the mirror
And feels it slice her hand
She drops it and turns her hand over
A single blood drop hits the floor
And she smiles
She is still alive
Sometimes she doesnt know if shes living
So she stands up and goes into her yard
Where that soccer photo was taken
And she stands there for a second
Before running back inside
The sun is setting
By the time she comes back
She sets up her tripod
And sets her camera up
Then runs back to that place
The place the photo was taken
And it flashes
Her, smiling like a goblin
Dressed like a fairy
With one bloody hand
To remind her
She is still alive.