Torn Apart

Lonliness has always been a friend of mine
Because it seems my entire life, ive been blind
The hardest part is holding it all inside
Even though the worries have been trapped inside my eyes
All my life ive only wanted to be something
Even though all my blood, my sweat, and my tears just seem to mean nothing
Getting lost inside my mind and having to find my own way
I just feel that im living a movie and having to watch my life fall away
I was only playing in the beginning but my life took a turn
After ive been chewed up, spit out, and repetedly burned
All those heartless burns have left so many scars
I hide the pain so it doesnt show, while inside it rips me apart
How many wounds must I bare until I cant take anymore
Why must lonliness be my best friend and keep me torn
Ripped in between sitting alone in the dark and wanting more
Wanting more from my life, and more from my own heart
With a mind focused but a heart broken it seems i will always be torn apart