Choices

I feel the eyelashes but they don’t lacerate my flesh
My life is turning into one big mess
I'm getting dazed and confused over the littlest things
Every night I dream of growing wings
I wish there was some way to make it disparate
And get ride of what's causing my two-sided fate
I need to get my shit straight is all that they say to me
With decision at hand the right choice is key
I don’t want to hurt him yet I cant tell him goodbye
I know if he finds out he’ll be broken and so will I
So many ways to go but the right one is hidden
Please God help me make the right decision
I tell him that I love him and I mean each and every word
But if I try to tell the truth he’ll think I'm being absurd
Knowing that I cant talk about it gets me so mad
I just want to tell him oh-so bad!
Have you ever had a secret that makes you want to explode?
You think you’re close to the end but turn the corner and it’s just a longer road
Sooner or later I'm sure I’ll find my way
My life has to get back to normal at least someday
Now or then I wont be able to take it anymore
I'm tired of being in a self-inflicted internal war
Because right now its like living in one giant whurl
Of choosing between being with a boy or girl…