Beginning

Once again I feel my makeup smudging,
My mask cracking,
My façade falling from my face..
My resistance falters and I break.

These chimerical words
Are so intricately carved
Into the pages of my memories..

My web of lies,
C.r.u.m.b.l.e.s,
As the last fly is caught.
This web was becoming tangled,
Now it hangs; lifeless,
Cascading like a wilted rose..

..And now is time for a new beginning..

New love,
A new week.
New experiences,
A new lesson.

This outer shell shatters,
Each shard penetrating my
B.r.o.k.e.n  \\heart//
Each piece of mirror,
Reflects the pains of my past.

Here I stumble,
As I weave this new web,
And try to love once more.

Is it worth the pain?

When I finally learn,
To let go of my pain,
All will be well..

Can I find that inner strength,
To let myself be weak?
To allow my weaknesses to show,
To let myself be loved?

..Now is the time for a new beginning..