I am running again, it seems
toward some unseen cliff -
this is where I have lived
these past years.
No, not in this park
(sometimes far away, south,
or under the ice,
glassed over like a duck
that doesn't know
where it should have flown).
I am running again,
joyful-ignorant,
and who will save me?
I have so many questions
and make-believe answers,
stuck between
the child and the man,
trying to find me
somewhere in the rye.
How will I catch the children
if I cannot catch myself?
Holden Caulfield was a boy in a man's body - an adolescent struggling to hold onto those things that made sense to him as a boy (and struggling to understand those mysteries that seemed unsolvable to him when he was growing up). He needed things to mean something, needed to feel as though he had a purpose (catching the children), needed someone to catch him, wanted to know that the ducks in Central park weren't trapped (as he sometimes felt) beneath the ice. This, I think, is one of the reasons the novel has become the handbook of American teens, the reason I read it so many times that it has become inextricably linked to my memories of those years.
Written August 9th, 2006