~*~ Promises are nothing but lies wrapped up in ribbons to make a pretty bow~*~
You say that you love me
But this is not love
and dear
those ribbons around your promises are coming undone
leaving nothing but your lies
Don't you see the pain that you cause me?
Don't you see the tears in my eyes?
Can't you realize all this hurt is from you?
Are things going to be OK this night
or are you going to become enraged
and use me as your punching bag
like so many nights in the past
of course when its over you hold me close
and make me some more wrapped up lies
and say your sorry and you love me
If I fight back it only gets worse
If I yell and scream you hold me down
If I cry you just laugh
This is your game
and I am never the winner
As your cutting me down
I stare into your eyes
and I try to find the man
who I feel in love with
but the longer I keep searching
through these tear stained eyes of mine
I realize that man is no longer there
When I met you
I believed you were the one
I was blind to all your lies
and you could do no wrong
Never in my life did I believe you would do me harm
You were the sweetest guy ever
You were gonna make all my dreams come true
You were never going to hurt me or break my heart
You were unlike the others you were gonna love me to death do us part
All of it was lies
Not to long after the cheating began
Even tho you denied it all
Soon after the beating began
but you were always sorry
So you say you love me
Tell me how is this love
I should not have to fight for your love
I leave you
but you manipulate me
cause you do it so well and I come crawling back
Believing.....
Hopeing.....
Praying.....
Wishing......
Dreaming....
That you will change
and you do
For the next few weeks to months
but then its back to where we ended before
and it continues till i leave
and then come back.. and it starts all over
only getting worse each time.......
Rinse.. Lather... Repeat...
Its an never ending story
~*~ Promises are nothing but lies wrapped up in ribbons to make a pretty bow~*~
Natasha Stewart ( Natasha Snell )
Author notes
~ You may use this in your book~
UPDATE
~I dont know if this what you are looking for... if not i will remove it,, but its all true.. i wrote it for myself to give my self strength to leave the man who i was with... after i wrote this.. i did leave him.. but i went back to him for a 3rd time.. trying to belive that he would change i gave him my everything .. while in return he gave me nothing...I left him for good in january of this year.. and i am happy to say that i did not go back to him ... i am now happy and married to my childhood sweet heart...~
"tidal waves they,rip right through me,tears from eyes were cold and sad"
~*~ I went threw alot with my boyfriend of 2 years who i just left not even a week ago.. no matter how much we fought, how much he hurt me, how much i blead or no matter how many bruises he left on me i loved him... i would leave and he would make promises and i would come running back.. all of what is in this poem is true... one day i just woke up and got up the nerve and left... im still scared but i belive that i can be strong enuff this time.. and i am never goin back to him .. and no other man is ever gona hurt me again!
Please if you are going threw anything like this.. tell someone get help.. before its to late.. i know you may love him.. but he wont change.. and you cant keep letting your self get hurt..your better then that!
Written August 7th, 2006
A contest entry
- The Pains Of Abuse by Faerie.Princess.
400 points, ended August 13, 2006, 34 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - spit your words but i will still love you by hippy love.
320 points, ended January 19, 2007, 12 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Give me your best ! by vasi.
700 points, ended March 10, 2007, 123 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - One Hundred Poems by Lady-Pegasus.
700 points, ended April 10, 2007, 54 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - anything goes. by warrior-eagle.
600 points, ended October 3, 2007, 50 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Waiting on one of those "life changing" events i've heard so much about by without the night.
600 points, ended October 9, 2007, 3 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Pre-Write Challenge by Nicolette Everett.
450 points, ended November 25, 2007, 71 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - EDIT: ADDING POINTS! Come Be A Voice...Hearts Loving and True, Sincere...Lets Speak Out On Abuse..And start DOING instead of just watching... by PassionsPromise.
2500 points, ended December 10, 2007, 32 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
Comments
1 - 16 of 16
-
You are right...I can completely relate to this!...The pain and whatnot is so evident and I know what its like i too have gone back to the man that caused me pain. I have been playing this game with him for over a year...and I realized I dont love him anymore, I was in love with the person I thought he was. Thank you so much for writing this so I could read it...so true. so painful...
-
this holds so much pain and depth within it that it is gripping allowing the reader to feel the emotions. well done
-
So much pain in written in this piece. I hope your writing this has released some of your hurt. Emotions are really deep. Take care of yourself.
Soulful Woman
-
Very deep and emotional piece.
Thanks so much for sharing.
This has me in tears
Tory
-
I am glad you got out of it before you became another statistic on a sheet of paper somewhere, so many do not make it out. Excellent write, thank you so much for entering it. Please put in your authors notes if Tory can use this in her book...Scott & Tory
-
Completly awesome in every way, from the way it flows to the words you used, I was totally engrossed in your story and I really want to kick his ass. Wonderful write.
-
Beautifully done,
Such a sad, sorrowful, painful pen here as told through eyes full of tears, a heart shattered by broken promises, love more of a mirage than substance. Wonderfully done andkudos to you and for your making the break......or have you?
Evan
-
-
well when i first wrote it and left the author commmets it was in august.. i left him but then went back to yet again.. after that the abuse got worse.. then in january of this year i left him for good and im now married to my child hood sweet heart
-
-
Wow! The fact that you let him and are hanging in there to stay away from him is great. Keep up the fight to stay away from you. You are right that he won't change.
Good job! -
Yes i know this is a late comment im very sory things just got busy,but my god this is amazing. I felt your emotion. Very good sensory. The last stanza was great..rise...lather..repeat.
-
tasha that was great, im glad ur not with him anymore, he was such a loser.
-
WOW! THis was was great and very intense,and sadly true too,but I am glad you were strong enough to get out of the relationship.I like the whole entire poem but mostly stanza one becuase yeah lies are just what you said.wow,thank you for entering.
-
Thank you for your contest submission, I do need to ask you review the rules and edit your submission appropriately. Please IM me and let me know this has been done, thank you.
Such a raw piece and well portrayed. I am a survivor as well, so bravo for getting free. It is not as easy as those not familiar with it can even fathom! I wold suggest s slight grammar/punctutaion/spelling review. Best of luck in this and all of your endeavors.
Hetohke'e * 
-
Very strong and emotional write. It didn't seem to flow quite smoothly it seemed like just thoughts recorded which I actually thought was intersting. I have hated women beaters all my life and have been taught all my life that is wrong. He will get his in good time. Message me if you want your score, make sure to include the name fo your poem. Thanks for entering.
-
really powerful! i really like it and im sorry about the curcumstances that may have brought you to write this poem i hope in the end you will find the man to make all your dreams come true and make you happy as you will feel like you need it xxx
-
this is a beautiful poem and i hope one day you get away for good instead of believing his lies, from the way you have written it, i think he does love you in a way. i love your ending. its powerful to end with a quote of some sort. good luck in the contest and keep writing
Thankyou For Entering
Adding your comment:
1 - 16 of 16
