I know
it's true
I've been there too
lying there bloody
thinking it's all because of you
I knew he didn't mean it
after laughing when he spoke
but as I lay there, I knew his promise not too
had been broke
I'm laying here bloody
bleeding from the core
the trust I once had
was once again torn
he smiles and begins to again dress
and still I lay there
like a new born bird in a nest
did he do it for the power
or just for the adventure of wonder
he stands over me
growing like a tower
my heart begins to thunder
the guy I once looked too
to keep me safe
is now the reason
I'm a victim of rape
he still stands looking at me
as if I'm an ant
growing smaller and smaller
and still I lay there
staring at him thought the tears
watching him grow taller and taller
he walks away
thinking it's all o.k.
but little did he know
that's the day
he took my trust away
'no',I said
can you not hear
I won't do
what I don't want to
I say with an evil sneer
'just one more time for the night
and I'll stop asking'
still the concept
he's not grasping
he turns with no words
I go to touch his hand
and again he turns
fine
o.k.
have it your way
don't worry about the tears or the 'No's' I say
he move fast for the kill
he got his way
he got his thrill
so now I lay like an iced drink
I start to chill
he thought it was just to be a game
still he can not see
this was the day my ex-boyfriend raped me
Author notes
I know it's not the best write,but it is very close to me,if you have been here,or know how it feels and have gotton through it,please give me some advice,to make this 'give up'feeling go away!
Written August 4th, 2006
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Comments
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I think that this is a really heartfelt and real poem it was also well-written but the form needs some work,i agree with Abused flower cuz it was kinna tedious to read.Ummm as for advice you need to let him know where you stand let him know that what he is doing to you is not ok!! You are strong and he has no right to treat you this way.
*Amy* -
you asked for help. it sounds like most of the abuse is in your head and that what he did do was purely for you. maybe you expect too much and he's sick of it? you wouldn't know until you talked to him.
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i know how you feel.. i went through the same thing.. ex boyfriends.. I think its fine the wayt it is.. but id break it down into parts instead of one long poem.. or center it..
if you ever need to talk i'll isten.. i just posted a poem about my rape and how i feel..
Abused
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