Just Die

Leave me alone
stay out of my face
out of my life
you're not my friend
I hate you
the sound of your voice
the look I see when I look inside
the look in your eyes
why won't you just die
leave me here in my own misery to cry
no,i'm not perfect
and I barely ever listen
maybe it's that I have a problem
or maybe I just care
I don't care
I don't want to hear your voice
or even attempt to make you happy
you never cared to do it for me
you claimed to of tried
trying's not enough
if you'd of tried
you'd would die
are you sick and lazy
or do you just finally just understand
that if you temt to take him away from me and this place
that i'll become a slave to treat
like the emotions you beat
and the tears that i've weaped
they just aren't enough
to satisfy you insane,depraved,abusive lust
would it sicken you to know
that I cut my own flesh
to make the pain of the parenting mistakes in my head go away
that I would rather mutalate my body
than feel an unreal shame
a shame that you should feel for being so wrong
for causing this deseasing inpain
I hope it kills you
pushes you to mutalation
just like you've pushed me
even decay
roting away
like this father daughter relationship
fading everyday