Lying naked on the floor,
I can't take this pain anymore.
My memory is gone and I feel so lost.
What have I given up and at what cost?
I feel so degraded and numb,
look Lord what I have become.
Why did this happen to me?
I am still asking. I am going out of my mind can't you see?
Hours ago I awoke to the most traumatic feeling.
3 men doing things to me, why, how, I thought as
I was kicking and screaming.
I finally hurt them and I got free.
All the while screaming and running frantically.
They took to the chase, I could hear each foot step.
Please let me get away, I can't do this again!
I seen my car and wondered how it was here too.
But I jumped in I knew what I had to do.
Oh on I see them, here they come!
Please car get me out of here before they catch up!
It took me hours to find my way home.
I was so afraid to stop and use the phone.
So here I am lying on the floor.
After scrubbing until I bled.
But nothing helps the pain and misery
for what those horrible men have done to me.
As I sit here with the pills and the wine
wondering is this the answer,
should I end my life?
By Theresa Walker-Keegan
August 1, 2006
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This is a true account of what I remember from my sexual assault. It was very hard for me to write, maybe one person will read this and it might help them just a little then it will be worth all the pain of writing it.
Written August 1st, 2006
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Thank you so muc
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am truely sorry there are such evil souls in this world that would do such a thing. Wish I could erase that from you, but then you would not be who you are and then something would be missing from all our lives.
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wonderful poem!!!!!!!! very sad... yeah im very sure it will help some one...
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nice job
I'm sorry you to have had to go thought this if at anytime you want to talk plz just write. your flow was good and meaning heart felt. -
Thank you dear friend for your kind and caring comments
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I am so sorry for what has happened to you, thank you for the caring and kind comments they mean the world to me
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gives you big hugs I read a similiar poem to this account. I can't imagine what it was like for you but you have friends. You have many many friends that care about you. Good luck in this contest.
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Theresa,
This reminds of what happened to me about 4 years ago. I was assaulted, not sexually, but assaulted and then my life was threatened. I still live with that ne hanging over my head yet today. I have no idea where the SOB is, but I do believe he has been here a few times. He has a destinct cig oder that makes me sick to smell.
I have written about what happened to me and yes, it is not an easy thing to write about. Because you relive it all over and over again. just keep your head up and focused on the future and try not to think of the past too much! Like wings says,'you just don't let them make you suffer the rest of your life and show them you are a winner and you will carry on'! Keep the ink flowing. Love and hugs...
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Theresa this is a very nice write that you had penned here my friend I am sure some can relate to what you went through its hard in life and the scars never erase, you just don't let them make you suffer the rest of your life and show them you are a winner and you will carry on, well done theresa and sorry you had to go through this
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Thank you for your great and caring comments
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Thank you for the kind and caring comments, they really mean so much to me
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Thank you for caring so much, it means so very much to me
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wow this is a good writes, and I'm sorry to hear what happened that is such a terrible thing to go through.
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Expressing your feelings about something this traumatic is very good for you. You have started to heal! I feel the intensity of your suffering, wanting to rescue you, protect you from your suffering.
Now past the emotional part, your write was intense, keeping the reader focused and wanting to know all it can get.
It mkes the reader ponder, what if it had been me, what would of happen, and inside leaves you feeling such somberness.
Very good work, as most writes about true aspects of life are. Good luck in the contest and God bless.
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Sighhh... 
It happens far too often to far too many women...far too many children...& how many are even believed??? Not enough...I'm glad you were able to work through the agony, despair & misplaced guilt in order to share this story...As you well know, it isn't easy being a Poet...the lives we lead are intense, vivid & sometimes painful, as well...You've given us a voice that isn't harsh or too much to handle...this is an impressive piece, filled with accurate verbiage & purity of flow...great imagery, raw & far too easy to identify with...This is a very impressive effort...You've obviously dug deep within your psyche to pull this penning into being...There are many aspects of this piece that cause one to ponder even greater questions...the mark of a good poem or story is to cause the reader to contemplate it from their own perspective; this one does just that...This is a very intense, vivid penning ~ it is obviously a heart~wrenching revelation that required a great deal of courage to reveal...The shadows are not an easy place in which to breathe...I appreciate the efforts it required to find your way on the Path in order to share this part of yourself with all of us here...Be well, Poet... Wanda
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Thank you for the kind and caring comments. They really mean so much to me. Thank you again
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This is a gripping write of realness. The feelings you have conveyed are astounding and very strongly moving. I am sorry for what you experienced...and I too hope this will help someone in some way...even if it is a small one.
God bless you for finding the strength to share this.
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Thank you for your wonderful and caring comments. They really mean so much to me. Thanks again and thank you for letting me enter your contest
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So here I am lying on the floor.
After scrubbing until I bled.
But nothing helps the pain and misery
for what those horrible men have done to me
i think this is a feeling that i can really relate to though with man not men, i think its brilliant that you can write about this account, you must be a strong person to have delt with this kind of expierience and have such courage to recall and detail it, im sorry such things are staining your memory
this is a great write, thank you for entering another of my contests
laurax
(my friend once said, life is like a book, when one page gets ruiend dont through the book away simply tear the page out or skip it) <<< i think of this and it helps me a lot
again thank you for entering
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