I should have known when I was 12
I screamed with delight at my first concert
I thought Rick Springfield was the coolest guy
Many wondered why I reacted this way to him
I must admit that I had wondered about that myself
I started having thoughts about my best friend
I was jealous when he spent time with his girlfriend
Why wouldnt he spend this kind of time with me?
Was I not good enough for him, did he not like me?
I often wondered what it was like, being his girl
I try to stay away from "chick flicks"
But sometimes I love watching romantic movies
Yes, I do cry at the end of films
I often wanted to be held by strong arms
I would just shake off these thoughts and laugh
I would make jokes with my friends
I would "pretend" that I'm not turned off by men
When in reality I am not turned off by men
When I finally came out to my friends
All they said was "What took you so long?"
I am proud to say that I am who I am
I am more sensitive than the real men
I no longer have to hide from myself
So who cares if anyone knows it now
I can be free with the choices I make and be happy
Author notes
This is my first poem in a year. So, ironically, I'm coming out twice 
. But seriously this is the first time I have let the general public really know about how I feel inside and outside. I'm a thirty-six year old bisexual balding man, and I feel free. Heaven's not a place that you go when you die, it's the moment in life when you actually feel alive
A contest entry
- Make Me Feel It : 3 Option Contest! by BeautifulDisaster9.
875 points, ended September 21, 2008, 24 entries
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I applaud you for this...I only hope that you make a choice with one sex...and decide what really does make you whom you appear to be?
No real woman would desire a bi-sexual guy, and sex is not to be thrown around for all to enjoy...
You have empathised with most gay men here and for realizing your fears, I give you an applause
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first of all thank you for the applause. Also, I am sorry you feel this way about me. I dont run around have sex with people indiscriminately. I am not a sex machine. I give people respect. I am a man of honor and dignity. And if no woman wants to be with a man who has honor and dignity, then I guess it's my loss now, isnt it
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You're responsible for what you do and what you don't do in life. It's tough to tell people you're bi or gay, because they have all these expectations. When you're still the same person. People like to place you in some box or another. Don't let them. Or you're only trading boxes.
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Wonderful
Well good for you, it's nice to be free, free as a bird. Maybe now you can soar to different heights in your life. I'm sorry that you have had to be in hiding for so long. Your poem is beautiful, a true story of freedom. It's told with a great flow to it. This makes it very interesting. Hooray!!! for you.
Snappy
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Wow, that's great, it is an honest statement of you. You have some reminiscent aspects to this most people can relate to. Good poem.
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Congrats!! i'm a 17 year old girl and i came out and said that i was BI-sexual about 2 weeks ago. It's hard as hell to do but luckily i have understanding friends who don't mind!! But great poem, it was good!!
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Way to go!! Be happy and free. lol This is a great write and I can totally relate.
I am proud to say that I am who I am
I am more sensitive than the real men
I no longer have to hide from myself
So who cares if anyone knows it now
I can be free with the choices I make and be happy
I love this verse. It speaks volume to me. Keep being yourself and keep writing from the heart!
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Good for you. Kudos. Glad you stepped out of the dark closet welcome to the light. Now rub your eyes and get accostomed to it. RobinRae aka FaeryPixieFey.
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i am a 17 year old girl and i came out a year ago. i am vary happy for you. Congrats!
Love Always
Diamond
Ps if u need someone to talk to...you have me. you could be like a dad. lol
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