An Ode to Daddy

As I sit here in this darken room, I hear my father's laughter. I hear the rampaging beat of my heart silenced because it's been broken by the one man I thought I knew...

Been without you for too long, hope to find you someday soon. Felt isolated and betrayed since you left in '92. I was only 2 months old! Why'd you leave me? That was cold. 'Specially for you, the one I called my hero is nothing to me now but a stranger and a zero.

As I wait patiently for your return, as I long for you, I weep. Bitterly, anger rises within me each time I see your face. I go to my window, hope to see you there. To my dismay, you've disappeared. Where's you go? Why can't I find you?

I'm on the outside looking' in. Looking' at yo' wife and kids...Why couldn't you have stayed? Were you and mom so immature that you had to go away? I miss you, I need you. Even if it don't seem like it, I do.
I feel like I've lost you 'cause you're no where to be found...

You were the only thing I wanted, the one thing I never had. But now I've gotta look to God to fulfill me 'cause you messed up real bad!{/b }