As I sit here in the darkness
The darkness of the night
I hold that blade
The moon hits it's
Shiny surface
And reflects it
Onto my tear stained face
I look at the blade
As the only way of ending the pain
Just 2 cuts
I think to myself
That should ease it a little
I put it to my palm
Almost ready to slide it across
When an image of him
Strikes my mind
And I think
About how me doing this
Would hurt him
More then it could ever hurt me
But my pain is to strong
I have to see the blood
Feel the sting
NO!
I can't
I need to think about him
He's too important to me
So I look at that blade
Once again
It trys to persuade me
But no I can't give in
So I drop the blade
Clink
I hear it hit the ground
And I stare start ahead
And I think
About what I almost did
I start balling
Falling to the floor
I cry my eyes out
But I'm thankful
At the same time
Thankful
For him...
Because if it wasn't for him
I would of cut
The moon shines upon my face
And I fall asleep
In my puddle of tears
With my enemy right beside me
Watching
Waiting
Till the next time
Author notes
Written July 22nd, 2006
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Comments
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the reason i like this so much is the fact that i can relate...thinking about my bf. good on u for having such strong power as to drop the blade.
thanks for entering
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WOW! Such a sad write. Very emotional, specially when you talk about or think about cutting yourself over some guy. No guy is worth you cutting over. Their is just too much to live for. Anyways hope things get better for you. And keep it up! And stay strong...Stacey
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this opem hits close to home. trust me. it is very beautifully written. KUDOS!
~Justin~
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