~My own critic me~
I am ugly
My own critic me
Every time he plants the seed
Every time by force must see
The hard edged mirror in front of me
Every time I see the face
Every time I feel the hate
Fear to see beyond the gate
Within the heart of my own fate
I cannot fly, only fall
I am not strong, I am not tall
I am not skilled intellectually
My own critic me
I am weak
I am old
My own critic me
I feel these creaking bones
I see these fractured lines
The hard edged mirror does plant the seed
Every time I feel the ache
Every memory I can’t shake
So dragged from deep within the gate
Running from the constant hate
I’m not as quick, I am not slick
My mere presence makes you sick
I do not move as gracefully
My own critic me
I am done
Clear to read for all to see
To know I take it woefully
To know the arrows of my mind
To face the world with all defined
To have the chance to fight it back
To set myself for the next attack
To do it all before you see
So when you do it then to me
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Do it so you will you see
That one truth I know to be
The critic that’s inside of me
Must have one truth on which to feed
It’s the only way to tame the beast
Author notes
Alone I would not have won the fight
To follow paths where friends have died
I do not always know their kind
But angels of my fate have twined
Without their careful loving care
I’m sure I’d never make it here
To be the best that I can be
Right now but not eternally
I thank them all
This was a brain storm
All of it except this paragraph
I don't know what it means
Adrian
Written July 21st, 2006
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Anne,
The honor is mine
To be a friend to such as you
Who sees such wonder in all you view
I know we don't chat much
Mostly my fault
I never seem to know what to say
This place is a haven for those with low self esteem
We can be anything or anyone we want to be
Because we do not fear that anyone will see us
notice none of us are ashamed of our
hearts, minds or souls, just our bodies
you cannot percieve beauty without partaking in it
ergo you cannot be unatractive, barren or useless
no matter what you may think
you are beautiful
you are desireable
that is what others think
that is what your friend thinks
that is what your sister thinks
that is what your best girlfriend thinks
we will think that no matter what
should we ever meet
our opinions won't change
i know this know
i know it because of you
and tish
and linda
Thank you
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~i'm chunky
but i don't give a damn
i'm crazy
and i like it that way
i have stitches
but i'm not ashamed
i'm beautiful
i know i am
my personalities are~
(just like you)
Edited on Jul 22, 11:09 because ''. -
you and Adrian are the same...
both of you are beautiful
inside and out
and you both know that
(i'm not saying this cause i'm your family
i'm saying this cause its true)
love lots -
the recognition in your words, in your way of thinking about yourself.
you know i have a low esteem of myself (low? how about none)
I dont know you much, all i know about you is from your writes and your interaction here on allpoetry.
All i know is this:
I am honored that you call me your friend.
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boop...boop...boop..de..do...
Arse kicked from ME to you
My Prince of Fantasy
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Thank you sista
and it only took 5 tries
arse kicked all is fine
love you too
Adrian -
My love
I know you love me
no matter my appearance
thank you
your soft edged eyes
refute the critic's lies
I don't know where this came from
But its been brewing for a little while
I love you
and am losing concentration from the
Adrian
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Fruit Adrian ..I have written about five different comments and deleted...now I am coming to kick arse...
You are beautiful in more ways than any friend could ask for so get rid of that mirror so distorted and let yourself be loved.
Take that and delete at will...grrrrrr!!!
Ever lovin sista
oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Edited on Jul 27, 11:46 p.m. because 'I swore at him and should not do so in such a manner'. -
you are not ugly.
you have a warm heart
beautiful personalities
never tell your self that you are ugly
because you are simply not...
inner beauty is more important than the physical beauty.
i don't know how to convince you but...
open up your eyes
look in the mirrorlook deeper...
you have something in you that other's don't have
that other's would love to have...
(i rather have someone like you
than to have a pretty boy with a rotten heart)
love you
's all over because i love him
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