the opus of your soul
knew more variety
than i could possibly
endure
trombones & konghous
& keyboards
of your eyes
have transformed me
into the sound
of stillness
or a hummingbird's
reverie
in the scale
of never
and hurt
but sun
has drowned your edges
in hugs and
bell words
announcing the epiphany
of dawn
even though you bring
storm & stonely lightning
ripping the melodies
my heart could
memorize
i still fancy
your sight
in colors of
expectation & open-mindedness,
dreaded cloud
of golden linings
murdering sun's sky
with a few minutes
for weapon
Author notes
This is written for an old friend. I hope he would know who he is without me saying it. However I'm not sure it would make him smile, I think I'm on his ignore list so I'm not even sure anyone will reach out to show him this. And if anyone does... not sure it is or isn't a good idea to tell him I'm the author.
Why have I entered this anyhow? I hope we can make up.
No matter what happened... or what happens... I'm risking pretty much writing this, or even adding these comments. I feel vulnerable. And yet this has to be said, I'm tired of wishing for things and never saying it.
I'm talking about the good things. I'm not sure you can still see them. Well, at least the good things that have drawn me to you, made me trust you and let you know me more than most people do. Actually it was funny when you said I was fake because you're one of those people I've been the most truthful to.
Even though I'm hurt (and I'll spare everybody the details), everything... our friendship.. all those moments have been sincere on my part. And I miss you. I don't know what you'll think of this... and wish I could say i don't care. I don't know how many of your chat friends actually mean this -- I know lots say it to you and you say it back. But I love you. And the funny thing is, even after all this, i'd still want to be your friend.
And... just wanted to also say that I know you're going through some important stages in your life and I wish I could be there for you. But I don't think anything dangerous or bad will happen. Anyway, everything will sort itself out, you'll see.
Written July 21st, 2006
In a list
A contest entry
- Pay it forward #2 by little-hug.
300 points, ended July 22, 2006, 2 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Give Me Emotion, I'll Give You 7000 Points by Triste.
7000 points, ended April 28, 2007, 18 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
Comments
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I really liked this poem. The imagery was all at once straightforward and ambigous, beautiful and dark. I liked the style of free verse in which this was written. The words and thoughts flowed smoothly as you described each scene and related it to this relationship. The only place the rhythm stumbled was the line 'murdering sun's sky', it seemed squeezed into a place it didn't quite fit. But I liked what it added to that stanza, too. Overall nicely done, thanks for entering.
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Thanks again for your feedback. This one is one of the poems that are the most important to me, so I appreciate your comment even more
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Dear Diana, that poem was beautiful you composed! I have always been a church pianist, although, I am not playing anywhere now. I am so delighted your friend was receptive.
Belle
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Thanks for your very nice comment, Belle. Indeed he liked it and that's what mattered the most. Just asking, do you play the piano for a living?
~Diana -
I know that this is a poem with a two-fold meaning: a contest entry as well as a poem to make amends, but, frankly Diana, this masterpiece exceeds the beauty of all others in this contest..not that you intended it to be such! If the authenticity of these words could not melt the recipient‘s heart, it is because he has a heart of stone. The musical metaphors were the highlight of my day (I am a pianist). Belle
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Thanks a lot for your comment on this poem, it means much to me.
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Oh wow... well I loved this the first time I read it and I love it even more now because I know it means a lot to you and the person you wrote it for. I know it can't have been easy but sometimes things never are easy but still worthwhile
I think you ar every brave to write this 
and also very talented because it is brilliantly written. Again I loved the language in it and I learned even more new words. I really hope you can be good friends with this person again thank you so much for entering and paying it forward. Lots of luck to you always
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Oh, thanks so much, Nicolette. Your comment makes me feel even better
In fact, it seems to be ok.. at least for a while.. it's been a very hard decision to post this, but at least for now it's paid off. Thank you for your support
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I'm glad you wrote this poem...and your author's comments, Diana. I know it wasn't easy for you, my friend. So much sadness around here lately... What is it with some people that they just push away the ones who love them the most?? This is a beautiful poem and it shows your very high degree of love, friendship, generosity, but also your forgiveness to the one who has hurt you. That in itself says so much about the person behind the poem. It made me sad too....because I can so relate to this. There is a gentle sadness and a longing about this poem that move something deep inside of me, but I also see the golden linings of happy times. I hope things work out, Diana....and I admire your courage to make your feelings public (what more can he ask for?).
~ Nicolette
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NO I don't mind. I don't want you to cry
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wow, this made me cry. (hope you don't mind me commenting through this account.)
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