I sit here with pieces of me thrown all over the room... I fight for the strength to gather myself up and think of how I got here. I smile through my tears and I recall YOU.
You can still make me smile...
My head is confused with the things that were said... I try to figure out what I did wrong... after struggling with my feelings and through my tears I realize now the fear you are experiencing.
I am sorry... I just wanted to love you.
I opened myself to feelings that I have not felt in a long time and so did you. I dont regret them. I do regret the fact that they drove you away. I never wanted to smother you, I only wanted you to know that I was there for you.. No one has ever been there for you. Is it such a bad thing??
I am sorry... I just wanted to love you.
I felt your pain and loneliness so many times and wanted you to know that someone felt you were important enough to think about, to worry about, to care about, to miss and especially to love.
I am sorry... I just wanted to love you.
For the first time in awhile, I chose to take up the battle and not run from it. I guess it was the wrong war. I saw something in you that enabled me to tap into feelings I had locked up... I thought if I opened up, you would feel it was safe and you would open up too. You did and it was too much for you to handle.
I am sorry... I just wanted to love you.
I know how much my love scares you, but do you know how much my love for you scares me?? It terrifies me... but I always felt it was worth it, you are worth it.
I am sorry... I just wanted to love you.
My heart aches now as we reached where we are now... which is where?? I sit with my mind on thoughts of you and what I am going to miss. I cant believe my love wasn’t enough.
I am sorry...I just wanted to love you.
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Written July 15th, 2006
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I am so deep in my feelings, I too have been accused of smothering a love one. I have had to learn to hold back
and let them come to me. Not easy when my heart is just wide
open for there love and craves their touch. I need not tell you
you know it all already, Rick
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Auwwwww! This is a very sad write that you have going here!
It is always very hard to read these kinds of things because you know that the writer must have really been hurting to write them in the first place. And your words just dripped down the page with your sadness and tears. I could just feel it. It must be very hard to care about someone so much and have it feel like it wasn't enough. But I'm sure in some small way he is gratiful to you, even if it does scare him. I think that you have done a great job of expressing yourself here. So thanks for featuring this so that we all had a chance to share your words and feelings with you! 
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OMG, I love this so much. Everyone can experience heartbreak differently but your heart is still being broken. I really do love this so much. It was so nicely written, I just love it! I was intrigued the whole way through, I leaned forward in my chair and my eyes went furiously faster as I blazed through your wonderful poem! I think you did a great job of getting your feelings out and all! The first step is realizing then it's accepting. Keep writing from within!
See you around the deep end
moment liver -
It is so easy to open up on this site and share your heart and soul. When you read what others have written you just feel comfortable enough to do so. Thank you for commenting Wandering Angel..I always appreciate your thoughts.
Soulful Woman
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Awwww I can so fully relate to this one; been there and have done that...
You wrote your very heart into every line and that makes for some awesome poetry!
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You had me going from the start, tears were being fought back the first sanza, I am in about the same boat, but its a bit different, He won't give up the bottle and I won't give up on him yet, I am trying to believe he'll do something right for our family, but its a six week waiting period that has not even began yet, and i have to leave my husband with his mom till our new house getts approved, one small thing, if in those six weeks he drinks he goes back to prison, and all I wanted to do is love him,
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Awww...this is extremely saddening... You have such a pure, honest voice, beautiful and innocent. I can relate to this...I've asked the same questions before, felt the same pain. I thought this piece was heartbrakingly beautiful. Well done.
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excellent presentation
This is so sad, and very familiar too. Your words are so honest and sincere, and there are so many people out there afraid to be loved, and unable to return love.
Powerful poem.
Ethereal Melody
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WOW!!! this is beyond beautiful...I love it mostly because it describes a realationship that I got out of like 3 months ago no it was probably longer then that but this words how I felt about it and how I still feel about it.....about him....I do miss him and u....wow...its just hard to find somthing that says what u want to say and this is exactly how I would have worded it had a been able to think of this type of wording...love it hope to read more soon...
much luv
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Thank you for coming by to read and comment on my poem "Walk With Me". It is very much appreciated.
I like this poem of yours. I like the raw honesty that you have displayed. It is a poem many will relate to.
Wishing you every success with your writing,
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Thank you gullionmar...
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very sad write but done well keep up the great writing
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9 of 10
Very emotional, a little repetetive, but overall very good and full of feelings of love.
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You are always so kind in your critiques..You really understand where I am coming from in my words.. Thank you so much.
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My heart aches now as we reached where we are now... which is where?? I sit with my mind on thoughts of you and what I am going to miss. I cant believe my love wasn’t enough.
I am sorry...I just wanted to love you.
It is really a painful scenario which has come out here in the touching poetry as well..Although very and very thought provoking work to explore the dimentions of the love and its intensities too..
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