GOD DAMN IT!
I wish this fucking feeling
Would just go away
I can't take it anymore
I'm sick of feeling sad
And depressed all the time
I just want it all to stop
I want one day of happiness
Just one fricken day
Is that too much to ask?
I guess so
Because I've wanted that
For years now
And I haven't
Got an answer yet
So I guess I should
Just get use to it
Because I have a feeling
That this is not going to go away
Any time soon
Even though It's been 4 years
Isn't 4 years of sadness enough?
If only you knew
What is has done to me
My depression
Has effected someone elses life
Severely
That's how bad it's gotten
I try to fight it off
But it's found ways
Around my barricades
It's breaking down the last few walls
I have left
And soon
(Very soon)
It will knock down
My last line of defence
And I will be sucked in
Never to come back out
I need help!
And I need it soon
Or I will be lost
For etrnity
To an emotion
That has consumed me
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Written July 14th, 2006
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Ah depression....a friend of mine that visits often! An awesome write! Hope you feel better soon! Sam(Dreams27)
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WOw, the oem makes me laugh. I was like whoa! So much depression. But it very good. It remidns of tell-tale Heart fo rsome reason I don't know why but it just does but it's very sorrow and sinsiter. I like it. Awesome poem. Keep in touch.
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This is a really great piece ... You have expressed a multitude of emotions, but the most evident is the desperate sadness ...
Depression .. It's like being a fly caught in a spiders web, and there is no escape possible, because you can see the spider looming above ... I can relate all too well ... And how it affects not only the sufferer, but people who care as well ...
"Isn't 4 years of sadness enough?"
Goes to show that sadness knows no time frame .. Negative and painfl emotions always seem to last the longest, if they ever leave at all ...
You have done a brilliant job with this piece ... You have clearly conveyed how you feel
Well done ...
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This shows your inner self and that is something some people are afraid to show, and that shows a kind of courage. I have an idea of how you feel as I felt that way from grade 5 to grade 9, the things I did scared my parents but still nothing changed. I figured the only way I could change things was to do it myself, and I am still not the picture of great mental health, but if you need to talk about anything that you can't put in your poem I am willing to listen (or read) anything you have to say. Even if you just need to vent. Because I know what feeling lost is like, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. This is a really good poem and so are your others, well done.
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Emotions are the most powerful things in the world, I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time. I have been there and I am working my way gradually out of it at this point, but some things seem to pull me back in.
Also, when I first saw this poem on your author page, I chose to read it not because it was your newest, but because for the preview all I saw was the line 'GOD DAMNIT!' and I just thought that was an awesome start for a poem. Great write,
Cassandra
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