This is me, it's who I'am

Hopeless
Failure
Depressed
Suicidal
Cutter
Mistake
Insane
Paranoid
Messed up
Confused
Worthless
Dying
Imperfect
Fat.(I think)
Unhappy
Melancholy

That's me
It's who I'am
No one can change me
Even though they try to
They think what I'm going though
Is just a phase
But no it's something different
Something I can explain
Everyday the same thing happens
Get depressed
Get the urge to cut
Fight it...
And I hope and pray I win
For I don't want to feel the blood
I don't want to feel the sting
But sometimes I lose
And I grab the blade
And cut....
Cut of the pain
Sorrow
Darkness
Depression
And when I'm though
I feel a wholeness in my soul
But soon again
I will be...
Distraught with Depression
And soon I will cut again