The visions engulf me, playing,
Like a film on a giant screen,
with technicolour and surround sound.
The darkness is palpable,
every sound pierces my brain,
with a thousand hot needles.
I am frozen, immobile,
unable to stop the memories,
that have haunted me so long.
I curl into a tight ball,
hugging my knees to my chest,
as hot tears course down my cheeks.
My silent screams deafen,
my blood pounds in my ears,
my heart threatens to explode.
Switch it off, switch it off,
I can't escape, the past is here,
I live it every hour of every day.
These visions of the past,
that prevent me from living,
are seared on my brain like a cattle brand.
Author notes
Written July 6th, 2006 (option 6)
A contest entry
- Rape, Abuse, Assault by silencethequestion.
300 points, ended May 5, 2007, 29 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
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this was a very powerful write..very emotional as well..the flow was vert smooth and i can relate to this write...keep writting your very talented
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Chrissy thank you very much, true praise indeed, I am really thrilled that people seem to like this poem as I do not write much that doesn't rhyme, and often get comments like "there is nothing poetic about this write" when I try to write free form
Thank you again and best wishes 
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great write. i love the line "these visions of the past that prevent me from living are seared on my brain like a cattle brand" very very well written. thanks for entering my contes
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Thank you for your comment, I am touched that you thought it was well written, I do not have much confidence with free form poetry as yet, i'm still one of those people who thinks all poetry should rhyme Best wishes K
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Thank you for your comment, I sincerely hope that you are healing and if you ever need an ear im happy to listen. Best wishes
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Hi Ros, thanks for reading and commenting, you are very right, you can move on, this was a description of what it is like to live with, fortunately I have dealt with my issues, and the past no longer haunts me personally, but I know so many people who still live this day after day. You are very wise, and caring to leave such an encouraging comment, Best wishes K
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Hi there, thanks for reading and commenting, I agree that this is something many can relate too, too many unfortunately. Thanks for the good luck wishes
All the best to you K
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Hi Jeannie, thanks for reading and commenting. I think we all have things which play over and over in our heads, whether it is somthing we've done, or something which has happened to us, I hope that you are not too deeply affected, but should you need them, I have some techniques for coping with flashbacks I could send you. Best wishes K
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Sorry to hear that, there are some good techniques you can use for overcoming flashbacks though, if you would like them i will send them to you! Best wishes K
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The memories of the past only if you do not find the will to learn from them and move on.Try to lock them in a box where they belong and put a final close on them.You describe your pain so well, let it go and let the ghosta of time float away, ros
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i liked some of the metaphors and comparisons in this. also, the idea to the poem was interesting and i think lots of people could relate to it, 'cause i can. good job, and good luck in the contest. keep it up! <3
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Wow you did a great job
of expressing what I feel
when my past creeps to
the front of my thoughts.
Very well written.
Thank you for sharing.
I wish you the best of
luck in the contest.
Jeannie D Hunter
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i know how that feels
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