Happiness Will Not Return

And again I'm lost in Darkness
And again I'm reminded of my past
As I look down at my leg
Tears come to my eyes
And I think about the day
I did that to myself
And memories
Start rushing back
Things I don't want to remember
Pain I don't want to feel
Ever again
And sadness that I'm use to
Depression that is my soul
It seems to be my best friend
But it is also my enemy
It's my best friend
Because it's always around
But it's my enemy
Because it does not bring
Happiness......
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Wow happiness
It seems I felt it so long ago
When was the last time?
For that I can not remember
And I try so hard
To be happy
You don't even know how hard
I would give anything
To feel happiness for
5 minutes
Even 1 would be enough
For I can't even remember how it feels
I can't even remember
What it's like to smile for a reason
And sadly I know
I will never know happiness
Again................