Relinquished Heart

Those blackened shadows haunt my mind again,
Twisting and tormenting my breaking sanity.
Loneliness finds its way into my ruptured heart,
Draining me of all the life I once radiated.

The glow has been buried underneath the filth
that has infiltrated its way into my heart
and has begun to poison my soul, causing me
to choke on every breath as I hold in the tears

And each day it’s getting harder to breathe,
To laugh, to smile, to feel happiness.
All that my attempts have ever invoked
Is an eternity of darkness torturing my soul.

No one sees this inner torment I suffer;
I hide it too well for any of them to see
Even so, there is that child within;
the one that wants to be heard and held

Even though that child tries to escape
I hold it back under lock and key;
I can’t let it break free from those chains,
I can’t let them see my insecurity.

Such naivety has snared me before,
and I have only been left broken inside;
abandoned in the torrential downpour of despair,
lost and afraid, like so many times before

Never again will I fall for such a thing,
I’ll turn my back against my tragic past,
Though flashes of memory plague each thought,
I will close up in my shell to refrain from it again.

The longing of that seeing eye still haunts my dreams,
but there is no hope left; not trust remains to give
I've been bled dry of all I once had to offer,
and all they've ever thought to do was laugh at me

The strain of resisting retaliation is high
As I sink within my own ebony entrapment
And I don’t care whether I sink or swim,
Whether I let myself go or get up to fight.

No one cares enough to save me,
and even if they did, they can't get near me
All I've ever been is a burden;
constantly looked down upon for all of my misdeeds

So there is no silver lining out there for me,
No hope of love or the key to be set free;
I’ll just bleed inside this enclosed shell
Hanging in a limbo, as dark and cruel as hell.

My light has faded out, my eyes are dry
There are no more tears left to cry
No one will notice if I just disappear
Most already never see me here

My life’s like ashes and embers,
Long dead and unable to revive,
Left to be blown away by the wind,
There’s nothing that will keep me alive.

The dark hole is my only sanctuary
The frigidity quakes my body; freezing my soul
In the end, loneliness is my only company
because there was no one left to keep me whole