I suffer in silence my loss of you
I suffer in silence my love for you
How I love you, How I need you in my life
I have these feelings and no one to bestow them open
I suffer in silence
I left myself open, I know that now
but it felt safe, you made me feel so safe
In the middle of a heart wrenching cry
the phone rings and I must contain myself in
order to sound like nothing is wrong
but all is wrong, my world is wrong
this is not the way it was supposed to be
there was to be no ending, but only a
lifetime of dreams, you promised me
all these dreams are gone now
all my hopes for our life together are gone now
I suffer in silence
I dont want to hear people tell me how much
you hurt me, I know that, I feel the pain of the hurt
I want people to tell me how you loved me
I want to hear what we had was real, to you and to me
How beautiful our dream was
I need to know I was not a fool
I suffer in silence
How I wish we could talk and share like we used to
I miss that more than anything
I miss learning about you and revealing more of myself
How your past joys and hurts brought you to where
you are now, or just a daily sharing of events of the day
How you struggled with your past to move forward
and wanted me to move forward with you
How sure you were of us
Where did that go??
I suffer in silence
I was terrified of your love for me
I felt so unworthy, so not deserving
but you made me believe I was
you made sure I knew that
I was loved by you
How blessed I was
that is a memory I will have in my heart a lifetime,
you will be in my heart a lifetime
I suffer in silence
I want to scream and shout and bang my fists
against the walls..NO NO NO
I cannot believe this has happened
I cannot believe we are over, that our dreams are over
I cannot accept this, I will not accept this, I can’t
I still hear your voice telling me I Love You
I still hear your reassurance of that love
This place is more full of your presense than of mine
I suffer in silence
I look at other couples and I envy them as they gaze into eachother eyes,
oh, how I remember your eyes
they sparkled, they danced, I saw your love for me in them
it gave me the peace I so desperately needed
I know you love me, I am so sure of that
but not enough to let me help you through your troubled time right now
which is too bad, because I love you enough to be there for you
I loved looking in your eyes, I miss the messages they sent me
I suffer in silence
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Written June 24th, 2006
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vivid description of the photo....
I really liked the repetition of "I suffer in silence." That is such a powerful line by itself. I finally have my internet back, so I will be able to read your work a little more often, but not as much as I would like to, since I'm back in college full time.
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I definitely felt the pain and anguish within every line of your poem!
I've been there and unfortunately, felt that
Wow, you wrote such an indepth piece; I'm glad that this is in your past
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The title so overbearing and the lines so sweet and yet so unnerving in their stark appearance and the lines bespeak of the memories sweet and the present is bitter and yet there is hope in this world...sometimes we love sometimes love just happens..and most of the times we end up hurt along the wayside...trust Him and things will be fine..Shubs
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I know you love me, I am so sure of that
but not enough to let me help you through your troubled time right now
which is too bad, because I love you enough to be there for you
I loved looking in your eyes, I miss the messages they sent me
I suffer in silence
A flow of love is like the flow of the river ..somewhere it is deep ..somewhere it is dry and somewhere it is pleasant as well..this is life and..great touch of the soul here I can see,,
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This is a wonderful poem. I love the emotion, the imagery, the flow and the rhythm. Keep writing these great poems……..
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another powerful write this is a poem from the heart all the right emotions are dropped into the lines just at the right time I'm once again sorry for your loss keep on writing it helps not to repeat myself but once again you have worded a beautiful poem ....
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You have a very romatic to touch with poetry. I can really see you didn't want to let go of love. Anyone who has broke up and yet still wanted to be together can really releate to this poem. Good job on expressing your emotions.
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WOW! Very cool. I liked the way you expressed yourself here. It reminds me of the time I lost my first love. I was devastated for years and years but now that I'm married I'm beginning to see that all that spark and fireworks was most likely just infatuation and I am starting to get over him now.
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My God! Such a passionate core outcry, and one so universal in its meaning, so powerful in its perception.
The greatest strength of this work is in its reference to everyday reality mingled with the soul wrenching pain of grief at the loss of a dream.
"In the middle of a heart wrenching cry
the phone rings and I must contain myself in
order to sound like nothing is wrong"
and
"I dont want to hear people tell me how much
you hurt me, I know that, I feel the pain of the hurt
I want people to tell me how you loved me
I want to hear what we had was real, to you and to me
How beautiful our dream was
I need to know I was not a fool"
Something inside me said, "Yes! YES! That's it exactly. That's the same feeling I've had."
And it's my bet that everyone who reads this work will have a similarly empathic understanding.
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Beautiful!
I love this poem of yours. It's very sad and emotional but, also very sweet and heartfelt. I am sorry for your loss!
I hope that you find someone soon to fill that void within your heart. This is a beautiful write and I thank you for sharing it with me! Keep up the wonderful work!
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This was a great poem. I love the emotion. I love the imagery, and I love how it flows. Keep writing great poems like this one and the one I read earlier from you and you will be on your way to literary success.
Love it. 
maria
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