My mind is fucked up
These walls, they never shut up
Don’t save me, they are my only security
Don’t make me socialize, I only need you
Please drown me with seductive attention
Say there is no one else but me
And let us spend the rest of my pathetic life
Listening to stories of my destructive past
My father who left
To follow his libido instead
My mother too intrusive
Made me live her dreams
The friends I never had
Left me broken when they betrayed me
The men I flirted with
Stripped me of my dignity
Don’t mind me
I am intoxicated
It’s these pills
Making me hallucinate
You have always been an illusion
A voice in my head whispering softly.
And this attention I yearn for
Was never mine to have
I miss you
Promise me you miss too
Keep me save
And aware
To not become an attention seeking whore
Like YOU
Author notes
My girlfriend said that this was the most honest piece I have written about myself.
Written April 10th, 2006
A contest entry
- Pre-Writes Galore by tears.of.silence.
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this piece is so powerful bc someone at some point in time has felt this way. i know i have felt this way more times then i can count. this is an amazing write. keep up the good work
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Beautiful. I like the fact that this feels personal and emotional. I think you've done well. You've been added to the finalist list. Thanks for entering the contest and best of luck to you. kahy
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wow this is excellent s powerful and meaty loved the endin big time
you have a great style
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This is wow.
I really like your profile. This is great. Message me sometime...
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Whoah..strange mixture of affection and loathing for the person you are speaking to in thie piece.
I was moved by the fear of becoming an "attention seeking whore..."
It is one of my weaknesses to desire attention and approval from everyone around me...but I have learned that I cannot please everyone without losing a big piece of myself. -
wow
extrodenary i cant say that i cant relate because then i would be dishonest i love how you put it, how you have found words for what i was never able to say, i am strong now and healthy both physically and mentally but in my past, ah my dark past, i could definatly relate. i love this great extrodanary write!
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Vicious!
Hi, sweet DL...mercy what a strong poem! Been there, believe me. Hope you are doing better now! All my best.... -
from the heart
Yo! This is pretty damn dope. I totally was never having to re-read anything .. very well done from the heart indeed my friend. Keep up the good work. Peace
~The Sprinkler~ -
exellent
Whoa....intense! This is obviously written from your heart, and I wish for you that those involved would read this....then you could say "how do you like me now?" You have alot yet to say, but if you just continue to write like this...man...you'll soon feel better. You get out there, and show them that you are not anything like them, AND you can express your emotions in a better, constructive, and satisfing way. Great Job -
This is well written with a good flow and clear content throughout with good progression and well porteyed ideas
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