Futuristic Thoughts

At this point of my life
I sometimes find myself
Questioning my motives
I never have any answers for myself
I wonder what my life would be like now
If I had done things slightly different in the past
Would I even be here today?

Often I wonder what my future is going to be like
Will I travel the world?
Will I be successful?
Will I be well known or even liked by many?
Will I have a family?
A faithful husband?
Most importantly, will I be genuinely happy?

I want to be able to look back on my life with no regrets
That is why I feel that it is crucial to make wise decisions
I fear that I will not be satisfied with my life
I fear that I will not accomplish much
I hope to never think of myself as a loser

The past days my mind has been wandering
These are the many things floating through my head
All of this, and so much more.