Do I Belong?

I’m just another God damn game in the way.
Like a toy you’ve gotten bored with after one day.
And you push me to the side without realizing
I’ve figured out the one thing that’s surprising
That I’m lost without you, a map with no direction.
A fact found untrue, a damsel lacking protection.
But it’s all foreign to you, you cannot translate.
To find time to love me is what you try to escape.
And don’t lie to me and say that I’m wrong.
I unfortunately know when I do not belong.
It’s just another time I’ve called you to find
That you’re just not there, in body or in mind
And it’s just another night out with the guys, you say
When I‘ve already missed you so much today.
But it never crosses your mind when driving late at night
So I let you have your bit of fun, without me, just in spite.
And you know all my weaknesses, my flaws, and my fears.
You know what keeps me quiet, you know what starts the tears.
I know you don’t tell me everything and it’s catching up with you
I can hear it in your voice and I know I’m lying too.
I know I’m lying when I tell you it’s okay to leave
You never really know how much I grieve
And I just can’t stop you from walking out that door
When it’s what you want and I want more.
So do I let you walk away,
Or stop the worst mistake of the day?
You’re the only thing I needed in my life
When I was just another thing giving you strife
Do I let you toss me like another broken game,
Or let things go on just the same?