as I wonder where you are
I've prayed to God up above
even wished upon a star
I would like to tell you
I've forgiven your mistake
If you would just give me a chance
My love is yours to take
My heart is always with you
just in case you didn't know
even though you've broken it
my love for you still grows
I don't know how to let you go
even though I've never seen your face
I feel this missing piece of me
that nothing can replace
I've bought a Father's Day present
as I have throughout the years
and I'll sit and wait patiently
Knowing in my heart you won't appear
I'll add it to the others
Maybe next year you'll be here
I think of all we're missing
and I wipe away another tear
Someday, I know you'll love me
Just as I love you
So Happy Father's Day, my daddy
I'm still thinking of you.
Author notes
not sure if this works but here it is!
Cayla T.
A contest entry
- Music For Everyone(Prewrites Accepted) by duana.
300 points, ended July 16, 2007, 6 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - LET ME HAVE YOUR BEST!!! by Ale E.
600 points, ended August 15, 2007, 65 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - ~*~ Double Your Gold ~*~ by Asfand.
450 points, ended August 14, 2007, 11 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Father of Mine by Memoirs of a Girl.
425 points, ended January 8, 2008, 9 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Trust by Nicada.
525 points, ended September 5, 2008, 12 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - All-time Best Rhyming Prewrites by TabbyJoy.
600 points, ended September 23, 2008, 54 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - ABUSE - looking for poems to be published :) by DramaQueen469.
550 points, ended October 25, 2008, 58 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Wow
This was one of the best things I have ever read on here.My stepdaughter and I have a very good relationship again and I thank you.I think every man should read this poem as it is heart breaking and maybe could help a Father to learn or think at least.I can't say enough about how much this touched me. -
congratulations on all the trophies. Well deserved by the way. I like the presentation as well as the work. thank you for entering
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actually it works very well and makes a whole lot of sense to me. I understand it very well because I too have lived this life. My parents separated days before I was born. Mom moving to one state while biological father stayed in another. They divorced and then lived separate lives. I have never met my biological parent. Never gotten a letter, a phone call, a note. Nothing. I spent my life growing up thinking that I was totally unworthy of him. Not because anyone said I was. It was just me. I felt unworthy because everyone else I knew had a mommy and a daddy including my sister. My mom had re-married and had another daughter. Her father raised me. However, I always, from day one knew he was not my biological dad.
This poem touches me in a good way tho. I always wanted to ask my dad why... why wasn't I good enough. It's a question I will never get to ask.
Thanks for sharing this amazing poem and thanks for entering it into my contest.

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Those are the exact feelings I have. At times I just feel sad and at others, I want to hate him, but how can you love OR hate someone you don't know? I'm glad someone else knows how it feels to a point but then again, I know how they feel too so I know how much it hurts. My mom also has married a great man. We didn't get along for the 1st 4 years, I guess you could say we couldn't stand each other. But time has past and now I wouldn't trade him for the world. My mom said we didn't get along because we are just alike, LOL. I even ask him to adopt me for my 18th birthday, but it would mess with my college financing so we are going to wait on that one, LOL. Thank you so much for reading AND undeerstanding. Good luck to you with this contest, you have a huge job on your hands and I'm just glad it's not me!
Hugs!
Cayla
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You have stirred feelings
This was a very heart touching piece that I can relate to.I don't know your dad or what the situation was but I don't think any Father can forget his little girl.By the way my daughter and I have a great relationship again.TY -
Heartbreaking. Utterly heartbreaking. What a beautiful piece; fantastic rhyming scheme. WELL DONE and thankyou for entering this piece.
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ohh... What a beautiful poem of forgiveness!
I so hope you got your wish. This is a wonderful poem
Thank you so much for the wonderful entry into my contest.

Delila

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It's nice to read a poem along these lines that holds forgiveness and hope. A lovely write, thank you.
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What a beautiful write, a great entry for this contest. A perfectly penned write with great flow and good imagery. Thank you for the entry. Keep the pen flowing...the pleasure was all mine.
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Thank you! I know you are kind of new so welcome to AP!
Hugs!!!
Cayla
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Yes, you are right in saying that this poem fits well with that quote on trust. This is a sad but beautiful write. The last stanza makes my heart break for you. A good father is so important in a childs life, and way too many do not have one growing up. Great job, and thanks so much for entering my contest. Blessings, Patty
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Wow. I used to send my dad father's day cards every year, but he would never respond or anything. That being said, I can relate to this poem very well.
Great write and thanks for entering!
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This is just too damn sad. I pray it's not true to life and it is just muse writing but it feels too genuine for that. I wish you luck...Scott


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Thank you so much for your comment! And I hate to say but it is true. But as years go by and I get older I'm starting to relize that this might be the way it will always be and I'll deal with it in my own way (like writing this) Thanks again!!!
Hugs!!!
Cayla
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This is a very well written poem that deals with a very touchy subject. I was lucky enough to have both parents around when I was growing up, so I really can't understand the anguish that must go through a child's mind when a parent leaves. Very well done poet.
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Wow! I think you are wiser than I am.. I still feel anger for my dad leaving... I really like how you still buy your father a present for each Father's day. It is really nice and wise of you to still be nice to him , even though of all the pain he caused you.
Honestly, I've never known anyone to have so much goodness and so much talent.
Thanks for entering.
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A very heartfelt poem. I don't know if this is actually based on your life - but if it is, I've very sorry and hope that someday your pain may be healed. The rhyming was very good and the rhythm near perfect. this is a wonderful write.
Thank you for the entry, and good luck!
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Sorry it took so long to reply but thank you. Yes this is true, but my heart is still open. The pain fades as the years go by, but the wanting will always be there I guess. Good luck to you in judging!
Hugs!!!
Cayla
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sad poem and the music as to the sadness
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Wow. So sad, beautiful, and sweet at the very same time. This is a very nice write. I love the flow and rhyming of this piece. Best of luck in my contest.


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I have little ones
who see their father fleetingly because he has another life. One they don't quite fit in and really haven't for awhile. Sometimes it's better to never know. It's good to love them but heartbreaking to hope that they'll come back. Well done and thank you for entering. -
wow- email card perfect! This is gorgeous. I only regret that it is not longer. If you have this talent you should consider writing an entire story in poetry form back up with music. I would love to do such a contest (require a hundred lines backed by music)- alas can't even get entries for these short ones though!
Really enjoyed this. very nice.

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Thank you for the nice comment! I'm not sure about how good I am yet, I'm still learning. I'm 15, so I have a ways to go. I've never thought about writing a story in poetry form. I guess I could if I tried. I might pick a song and see if I can think of something to write with it. If I do I'll let you know and see what you think!
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I love it.alot.Good luck you are now a finalist welcome to round two

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That's so sweet! Thank you so much for the nice comment!
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Tammy,
Thank you so much for the wonderful comment! I do think being without either parent is hard on anyone, either a father or mother. I guess maybe for a girl it would be harder to be without a mother. After all, growing up as a girl is hard to deal with especially as a teenager with all the changes, this I do know. I've been without my dad, which is bad, but I don't know if I could have made it through with just a dad. So I think it's really great that you have and I know from all the girl stuff I have had to go through over the last couple of years I just don't think I could have talked about it to any man, even if it were my dad. I'm sure it was in no way easy for you and I can just imagine how your father must have felt having to deal with the "girl" issues. That kind of makes me laugh. From the sound of it you and your dad have a great relationship. If your mom had stayed maybe you wouldn't be as close to your father as you are today, so something good does come out of even bad things, I think. My dad might come back someday, but I've learned not to get my hopes up just in case. I'm leaving my heart open, but guarded. I've decided to try not to worry about it as much and I try to keep my mind busy, but of course every once in a while I can't help but think about it. I've learned to just look to my future and focus on what I do have instead of what I'm missing. So many other kids are in alot worst. I do have my mom, who is the greatest and I make sure I let her know at every chance I get. She is wonderful and tries so hard to make up for what my father has done, which I tell her all the time it's not her place to make up for his mistakes. She works three jobs but still never misses any of my brothers baseball or basketball games or my choir concerts or any thing else we seem to be involved with. We are in no way rich, my dad doesn't even pay child support, but she always finds a way to make sure we have what we need and pay for all the extra school things we are involved in. So I might not have my dad, but God did give me the best mom in the world.
If only I could figure out a way for her and poeticweaver to get together than my world would be perfect!!! ...LOL
Just kidding!
Thank you again so much for the wonderful comment and I am also sorry for the long comment! It's nice to know that others care!
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this is one of the best poems ive ever read!! u certainly have a gift!! and i am sincerly sorry if this girl is u... but dont worry, u can always get through anything.
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Dear sweet Cayla,
Poeticweaver sent me to your page, and I have read a few that you have wrote. But I dont think there is one that has touched me the way this one did. This brought a tear to my eyes. I am so sorry for the pain you feel. When i was growing up, my mother decided that she didn't want to raise me and my two brothers. She didn't even ask for visitation, she pretty much gave us away. I have lived with my father since then. I am 26 years old and have been through alot. Everytime I needed my mother, she wasn't there. But she did come back into my life when i was 20 years old. She was very sick and knew that she didn't have much time to live. So I tried to forgive her, and I tried to be there for her. I did care for her for two years. On December 13, 2001 my mother passed away. Yes, I have to say that it hurt me really bad, and its still hard for me to let go. But I think that its really hard for me cause i only had her for two years before she passed away. I am not going to say that I feel your pain, but I can relate to you on a level of being without one of my parents. Stay strong, and know that even if your father never returns, going through this has made you the person you are and no one can take that away. I will continue to pray for you and your situation. I know that you have poeticweaver, but he can never replace your father, but can show you guidence, love, and what it is like to have a father figure in your life. If you need anything, know that I will be here for you. Sorry for the such long comment, but I just had to share my story with you. Hang in there hun, and know that you are not alone.
Much love dear,
Tammy
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this gives me the chills and knows such a love like this and you cant see your father. wow, sorry
this was very well done here, thanks for sharing and keep up the awesome poetry here...
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hey i know what your going through but maby you will see him agian so just hang on i never got to meet my dad he had heartproblems and died when i was young
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you are very very welcome
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Thank you so much for your nice comment!
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An absolutely beautiful poem, it really touched me. I am sorry that you are waiting and wondering, and really hope that you get your wish, the chance to meet your father. I am really pleased you won the contest, it was a very deserving winner. Blessings to you.
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Hi! I just wanted to say thank you for the comment. I think you thought this was a poem by sonja, but I'm stingersinger53. Your the second person who has thought that, LOL. You left such a wonderful comment that I thought I'd look at sonja's page, and I did. I feel very honored to know that my poetry has been confused with a poet that has so many trophies.
I'm glad you liked my poem, and I'm glad you have reunited with your father and also gained a new dad. I guess the praying and wishing does work sometimes. You have truly been blessed.
Thank you again for taking the time to read my poetry!
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My dearest, sonja my love, yet another masterpiece! I'm here for you and I know how someone who has not had a father daughter/son relationship
!! I've to wished apon a star and, prayed with all my might, I've shed more tears then you can imagine. Now I have no worries my dad finally came to his sences and got away from all the drugs and before he did my mom fell in love with someone wonderful that I've called my dad, for a about 4-5 years and I'm so happy that god has answered my prayers!
love allways,
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read my poem!
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DEEPLY TOUCHING AND VERY BEAUTIFUL
Very sincere and touchingly beautiful! One will always love their parents no matter what has happened between them.
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Cayla, Please forgive me, I had seen Sonja's comment right before that and put her name. It doesn't change how I felt about your poem in the least.
That's what happens when you are trying to get in your daily work and still enjoy reading too. Thank you again for sharing the lovely gift of your pen with all of us. Love and blessings for you, today and always.
Joyce
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Beautiful poem, so sweet. I'm sorry for your situation. He's missing a very special person. I can feel your love for him in your words. Take care of yourself. Hold on to your dreams, maybe one day they will come true for you and your Dad. Good luck in the contest. ttyl Tali
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Thank you for the comment, though this isn't Sonja. She did leave a nice comment too. I hope that doesn't disppoint you. Thank you for taking the time to read it and I'm glad you liked it!
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Sad and Beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!
Aunt Sonja, This is so sad and yet so beautiful. Your wording is so elegant. They rhythm and rhyme are superb and it flowed so peacefully. Thank you for sharing such beauty with all of us, best wishes in the contest. Love always from your niece, Joyce
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Awww! Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work and leaving such a nice comment!
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I am not able to comment your amazing verses and your feelings. Mostly I do not like longer poem (from time to time I write them too)but this one is really something different. Great flowing lines followed your included feelings framed with great rhyming. I wish you all your wishes come true. We all want to know our real roots no matter where they came from. Our personality could be completed only with complete picture. I am sure that your dad still do not have enough courage to tell you that he loves you and that he miss you too.
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I feel your pain, your thoughts are so evident in this, I pray that one day this happens for you, my sweet one, keep your
mind open and positive,but also know things happen that make it impossible to meet, one never knows hun..very loving poem here..keep it like this, I want your hopes to come true, thank you and best wishes ..Love and Blessings Always..
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Thank you! That is so sweet. So far my day has been good, just thoughts and wishes of what could be.
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First of all good luck in this contest. I like this. It is so emotional and I can tell its from the heart. I hope you have a good father's day even though you don't have a father to spend it with. I hope everything works out and i hope your father comes to back to you. Keep up the good work and good luck in this contest, you should do well.
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I know, it's like you know if they would just give you the chance you know they would love you, or that's how it seems anyway. Thank you for reading my poem!
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magically written from the heart
"If you would just give me a chance"
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Thank you! Who knows maybe someones dad who hasn't seen their kids in a long time will read this today and relize what their missing. I hope so! Thank you for the wonderful comment!
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Wow I really loved this poem. I am sure you will see your dad someday. if he could read this I am sure he would be verry proud. GREAT job! and God Bless!
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This piece was just excellent. It is not what I expected it would be when I read it but it was rather delightful in its sadness and ability to display those emotions. Really well done. I wish you peace with it. -
Thank you for the nice comment! It's nice to know that you have let them get to know their real dad and make up their own minds about him. At least they can make thier own choices about if they want him in their lives. I'm also glad you have met and married a man who loves them and that they love. I think all kids need a male role model and it's nice to know there are men who are willing to take on anothers mans responsibilties. I know your kids will someday growup and cherish the time they have had with their stepdad.
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you're welcome. i'm sorry that your dad doesn't realize what he's missing
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Well, almost right. I use to do that when I was younger, usually ending the day in tears. I'm 14 now so not quite as dramatic but every year I still have it in my mind he'll just show up, but deep inside I know he won't.
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so beautiful and sad to. many children never get the chance to know their real dad. my daughter grew up with her dad being a part time dad, only when it suited him,i let her get to know him ,she loves him but thinks he s ---- we got back together and have a wonderful son, who he abused at a young age.i taught my kids to forgive him n prat for him, they know there real dad ,but they have a special place in their life for the man who has been their stepdad,they love him dearly. i prat that god will answer your prayers and let you get to know your dad to.so full of emotion and wonderfully written, awdome poetry.
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oh, what a beautiful, sad, wonderfully written poem. it has such an air of tragic waiting and wistfullness. like a child waiting at the window, all set with her overnight bag and everything she wants to show her daddy...waiting for a long time before she finally realizes he isn't coming
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Thank you for the sweet comment!
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Very emotional heartfelt poem. This one touches me deeply.
The words are beautiful and full of hope.
Lovely rhyme and a wonderful flow throughout the poem.
thanks for the read
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Beautiful
this is such a beautiful and moving piece, filled with so much emotion. I hope you get your day and that he comes back to you.
Thank you for sharing this and good luck in the contest
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Thank you and I hope you get your wish also!
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I wish you luck in your wait for your father. When he shows, tell him that you have been waiting for him, and don't ruin your relationship. Give him time and let him get to know you. I want my father to spend some time and get to know me.
Very nice, emotion filled poem.
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Thank you! That is very sweet. Someday, who knows.
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Wow.. The emotion in this is very powerful. I would apply this towards my birth mother. Awesome poem, I hope your wish comes true some day. Athena
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Thank you for the wonderful comment! I'm 14, so I guess when it comes to a father you always feel like a little girl, especially when you've never had the chance to be one with a father. I still have hope but I do admit with each passing year it doesn't look good. Maybe someday...Thanks again!
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Excellent poem
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Awww! Thank you for the sweet comment!
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My goodness this is one of the most beautiful poems I have ever read. This poem is filled with love and heartbreak. This poem is for every person who loves their absent dad. Thanks for writing such a beautiful poem. -
Oh this is such a sweet and heartfelt poem you have written here. I can feel your pain and frustration here. I don't know what your situation is, but I do hope that everything works out for you and your father. You have a wonderful heart to have written this. I wish you all the best in your future and hope that you see him soon! Best of luck to you in the contest!
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This is a very good poem that you had penned for you father all he has done wrong in your life your the bigger person for forgiving him like that not many people forgive there parents to easily its a brave thing you did and this poem shows that this is a well written poem good luck in the contest sounds golden to me
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Sweetheart it's times like these that I would ever so much love to be a Fairy Godmother and be able to grant that wish you have to meet him and get to know eachother. My biggest hope is that he's good enough to have a kid like you as his daughter. So many guys just walk away befor a child is born, because they are selfish and don't want to take their responsibility, never stopping to think about or look back at the child they left behind. Only trying to get away from the woman they think tried to trap them.
A very beautiful poem. I wish you luck in the contest, you already won it in my book. Love you kiddo, Granny Cheri -
My Dearest Niece,
A tearjerker for the likes of even me! Warmth beauty and love carry through in your words. How could anyone not be touched by such a heartfelt poem.
My love to you from,
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Thank you for the nice comment!
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Mariananda, Thank you for the sweet comment. I'm sorry I made you cry. I do still have faith for now but as the years go by I admit it's starting to fade. But that's all I can do. Just wait and keep my heart open in case it does. Good luck judging, I'm sure it won't be an easy choice! Hugs & Kisses - Cayla
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Thank you for the nice comment!
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Thank you for the wonderful comment! And as for my heart of gold, I have to admit my feelings on this subject change everyday. Sometimes I love him, and sometimes I hate him. And it makes me feel bad to admit that part but I would be lying if I didn't. I guess that part of being a girl growning up, hormones and all, LOL. Most of the time I do just miss him though. The more years that go by the more I know how hard it will be to be a real daughter and father like it should be.
They say God never gives you more than you can bear, but in my oponion, he gets really close. Thank you so much for reading my poem and the wonderful comment! Hugs & Kisses - Cayla -
wow. I can't even put this in words what I wnat to say. You did such a good job expressing your feelings. I hope some day your father will be able to read this and understadn how much you love him and want him in your life. He will be so proud that he has such a loving child in. Keep up the great job.
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dearest cayla,
what a heart-stirring poem you wrote here, sweet cayla, it makes me cry so much, and I still can't stop crying. you have expressed so perfectly your feelings and your longing for the presence of your father in your life, and when I read that you buy him a present every year to honor him and show him your love, my heart was so deeply, deeply touched. this proves of an innocent, faithful an purest heart, and gives me a living example of unconditional love. what a valuable lesson you have just taught me, dear one.
I can learn a lot from you.
I humbly bow before such greatness of soul,
with sincere gratitude for who you are,
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Okay on the television the song "Butterfly kisses" was playing, it was so weird. (its a song that is mostly played at father/daughter dances at wedding receptions) How ironic!?!?
Anyway, this poem was really good. First half, was average. The second half of the poem was great. This was full of emotion. And I am sure there are tons of people out there who feel the same way you do, such as my mom, she never met her real dad- he was killed in a car accident when she was a baby... sucks to not know who my REAL grandpa is... but oh well i didnt really know the guy anyway, and i dont really respect him that much anyway because of other reasons that i should not post up on the internet.
Yeah, your poem rocked. It earned an applaud from me.
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Oh my, Poetic Weaver said it best. You have a heart of gold.Purely a gift. I wis h you all the best that life and love has to offer. and i too hope he comes around before its too late. He has a wonderful daughter to be so very proud of. And all ic an say is that, this was a touching piece, from the heart. An incredible read. Thanks for sharing a part of you.
God BLess
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As always your so sweet! I guess we are alot alike, thats why I picked you as my AP dad. You also love unconditionally, I read it in your poetry, and in your sons.
Someday, who knows, maybe I'll meet him and things will be different. Sometimes, well MOST times, I just wish he were here now. Now is when I need him. I wonder if I'll still need him when I'm older? And if I do, it will be very strange, a father I don't know. I think about it alot. Maybe I shouldn't but I can't help it. I saw this contest, and saw the picture and it made me wonder if I'll ever have that. How does a father and daughter who doesn't know one another make up for so many lost years? Things could have been so different if he would have never left me. LOL....enough of my ramblings!!! Thank you so much for the nice comment! Hugs & Kisses - YOUR AP daughter(that's funny!) Cayla -
PRECIOUS!
This is beautiful, shows your heart of Gold, and to be able to forgive is never easy, but so healing and rewarding..I care for you much, the good Lord Must of laid you on my heart, yet, every since you wrote that poetic piece for me, I've seen how true blue your soul is..Keep being you, you have a special gift, to love, unconditionally. Thanks for sharing my AP daughter dear, and I'm always here when ya need a friend to chat with, or in anyway lean on, much love to you and yours, Timothy The Poetic Weaver, aka, Daddio~from AP~













































