inkling

I look around so I can see
Nothing
But where could everything be?
Scuffling
Noises I hear in me
Create an inkling

Of something more then this
Behind the scenes is terror
I sense the dark abyss
Willing me to make an error
I have an inkling

Of something more to come
I did my bit, what more can I?
She was my oldest chum
I have to go, I have to fly.

Hand grasped wrist
*gasp*
Hand grasped throat
*rasp*

I have to go, I have to fly
I did my bit, what more can I?

*breathing*
Make the call
*seething*
Or you shall fall

Deep     fall      knowing
Control is lost to her
Pump         blood         flowing
One question, make it clearer

Will set it off like dominoes
Just one big chain reaction
She and I not juxtapose
Kick my but into the action
With just one sentence.

My   heart   she
*squeeze*
So    hard    to
*please*

I failed her, I must have
As she gave no ultimatum
I didn’t know, she must have
Started this transformation
Right before my eyes.

And just one happy normal day
I talked to my best mate
She had one thing, which was to say
Our friendship was now hate
In just one second

As time stopped
Tick
Tocking in me
Pick
Locking memory’s
Trick
Mocking to see
How I would live my life now
Surely?

Bam    hits   reality
One question, make it clearer
No   calm    serenity
And the time is getting nearer

*seething*
The numbers ringing
*breathing*
It keeps on bringing
Whatever happened
At the beginning
To
An
End.

With just one call
I may stutter but I will try
I know ill fall
To ask one question, why?

I look around so I can see
In my heart
But where could everything be?
It’s blown apart
Pieces all around in me
Create an inkling.