Releasing Tears

I cry over what I've done.
To you, to myself, to what we had.
Even though we're not together,
I cherished the love you sent my way.
I know you still love me,
but I hurt you too much to warrent a glance.
I dont deserve a chance.

I wish I could undo what I've done.
I'd give anything for just the relationship as friends we had.
I know you're going through a change.
I know you enjoy your freedom now.

I wish I could make you happy.
But time is supposed to heal all wounds.
But patience has never been a virtue of mine.
I am suppressing all my emotions.
I hate feeling so cut off from you.
I am clinging to what little I have left,
before I fuck that up too.

I want there to be no barriers, no wall between us.
This bond of ours is very important to me.
Wheather you realize it or not,
I feel some of the pain you feel.
But its mixed with my own and I dont know how to feel, do, think
without your wisdom and insight.
I can deal with not being by your side.

But please don't let my pain,
nor your own over me hurt you.
I may say some stupid things, i may lose
control of my emotions and my mouth.
I may want to feel your touch.
I may want to be with you once again.
But all I need is for us to be friends, truthfully.
I am glad you talk to me as it is.
But my youth has betrayed me in the fact I lack control.

I wont whine or bitch anymore bout this.
You know I will always care and worry.
Have fun for me.
Take care Dark Angel

WeepinArchangel