Dead Stare

Looking at the pictures.
Gazing at the pc.
Staring at nothin.
Seeing the love left behind,
yet dying because I am my ruin.

I don't know how to fix anything.
I can't seem to do anything right.
All I do is hurt, when I want to be held.
All I ever meant was to love, and yet I lash at those who are close.
Why do I do this.
Please someone tell me.

Why can't I do anything right.
Ive done nothin but ruin the good in me and my life.
Why do I push everyone away.
Why do I refuse help.
. . . Pride.
Pride is my sin.

Take me away.
Ease the pain I've caused, make them forget me.
Rend my flesh.
Crush my bones.
Burn whats left.

All I wanted was someone to love and I ruined my paradise.
I wish to be no more.
Someone answer my prayer please.
I'm done