Nothing, Not Anything

Oh Come What May you say
Lies dribble from your breathe
Teach me something real
Not just a game you play
I am not just a new toy
Please learn from your pupil
For I am through with this

Bluntness is better
Worry not 'bout feelings
I am a machine
I am nothing
I am not anything
The sound never ripples
The great sea of life

Note the Placid Facade
My face sportingly bears
The calm, cool, collected
Demanding emotion
Demanding Truth
Where is my truth?
Where is my worth?

I have not found
Any sustenance in lies
So why? Must I fixate
On the emptiness
On my skin and bones figure
Born from your calorie-free
Preaching all this time

I groan for something more
I cry for reality
The gentle quiet in the night
But it is too hard to bear
To look in the mirror
When hypocrisy does nothing
But carve itself in my features

An icy glint, a stony sheen
Your eyes must bear
Boaring from mine to you
Carving into the soft flesh
Of true actions
Of falsities
Of your true soul

I do not deserve
What you have given me
I deserve much less
Why must you pick me
I do not deserve
I am nothing
I am not anything

I am just a space
My work should go unrewarded
My words should go unpraised
Why must you single me out
To get what you have to give
Not someone better?
For I am a hypocrite

And I hate it.