Undoing Disaster

If I could go back in time.
If I could take back some things said.
If I could stop some tragedies from befalling me and my friends.
Would I?
Could I?

The Chance to remove someone from a friend's life before he ruined hers.
The Chance to stop some friends from taking their lives.
The Chance to not lose my virginity to someone who means little to me.
The Chance to make my family love her as I do.
What's the price I must pay.
Would I be here to live if I changed my past.

These are the thoughts that plague me.
The woulda, shoulda, coulda.
The what if's.
All my life, ive dissapointed myself.

Some days I wish my father never met my mother.
Some days I wish I never survived that blizzard.
Some days I wish I was nicer to the people that cared.
But in the end, We must live with our past.
There is no restart button.
Atleast I haven't found one yet.

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I just pray theres a reason for it.
I have to.

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