My life changed, yet not overnight
It started a while back
The day you changed your job I knew
Our lives would forever change
I saw you creep away from us
I saw it in your eyes
The love you promised you had
Had gone away from us.
I knew that things were wrong
I really am not that stupid
To even think you were hiding it
Really crawls under my skin.
The things that you promised
Never came to pass
And I lost the only one
That I ever called My Dad
You doing all that you
Had ever been against
Yet it didn't stop you
And our lives are forever changed.
Can you not see the pain your causing?
Do you not see the hurt I'm in?
And do you not see the tears that we cry
Every night to just go to sleep?
You claimed you're my dad
Yet why? Why don't you act like it?
Why did you leave me now?
In the hour I needed you the most.
My teenage years are supposed to be fun
Full of laughter and joy
Yet I'm put under stress
And the mighty load of responsibly.
Why? Why now? Why us?
Why my life wrecked?
Why couldn't you stay
And fulfill anything that you once said?
Author notes
My dad left me and my family about three weeks ago, and I'm not over it still. I don't understand how one can get over this. It is so hard on us and on those around us.
I know that this is not my usual write, and I started to write this is an iambic petameter and rhyme and all, but I started thinking, I can't force these feelings into a poem. So, I simply wrote how I feel about my dad leaving.
Thanks for reading
*God Bless*
~*Chelsea*~
Written May 22nd, 2006
A contest entry
- You are Not Alone... by Pensively Ignorant.
400 points, ended June 7, 2006, 9 entries
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thank you so much for your kind comment. It is helpful to know that other people know the pain that I am feeling. I really appreciate your comment, and the time you took to read this.
~*Chelsea*~ -
love
i understand this
a lot
and i love your way with words
keep it up
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thanks so much Tim, I know that I can talk to you whenever I need to. I thank you so much for always being there for me no matter what. I am so grateful to have a friend like you that fortunately listens very well
God Bless you as well. 
~*Chelsea*~ -
Wow, there isn't much I can say to match up to what Sarah said in her comment, but I do know a lot of what's going on with you... and you know that I'm always here for you whenever you need someone. Very heart-felt, painfilled poem you have written here... it's hard to read something like this written from a friend. You are daily in my prayers. I love you, dear sister God bless you
--Tim -
Wow, there isn't much I can say to match up to what Sarah said in her comment, but I do know a lot of what's going on with you... and you know that I'm always here for you whenever you need someone. Very heart-felt, painfilled poem you have written here... it's hard to read something like this written from a friend. You are daily in my prayers. I love you, dear sister God bless you
--Tim -
Thank you so much Melissa, you ahve helped me so much, I can't even begin to express my thanks. You are always there to help me and to listen to me while I go on and on about my problems. You have been a strong spiritual leader to me and I thank tyou for that so much. I know that whatever the problem, you will be there wlling to try and help and just alk with me. Thank you so much for you comment, and applause as well as your friendship. You mean so much to me.
*God BLess*
~*Chelsea*! -
My dear AP daughter these are your true feelings and emotions sometimes it does us good to just write and it seems like you mannaged to get your heart out on the page. I really want to be there to give you a big HUG I wish that I could do something more, but you know I am here for you. I am just sorry my computer has been on the blink. You are a wonderful, special and unique person and you are loved much more than you know.
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Thank you so much Sarah for this encouragment, and I will be sure to fix that spelling eroor....strange that you are the only one to notice it But, thanks for the prayers and for all of your help throught this bad time.
~*Chelsea*~ -
Excellent poem, Chelsea. The free verse form shows me that you have a lot of pain through you. The questions were a nice touch, a method I usually use in personal poems. The only suggestion I can give you is fufil is spelt wrong. Other then that, great.
It's hard to know what to tell you, and in all honesty, there is nothing I can say that will take away the pain. I can't take credit for anything that huge, and (in my opinion) no one else can, either. The only thing I can tell you: there is good news and bad news. The bad news is, this pain that you feel, never truly fades. But, the good news, it does ease after a while. The best advice for you is to stay strong, and hopeful. Don't let anyone, no matter who they are, including a father, take that away from you, your light and hope. You are an inspiration, and have much strength if you are still standing here now, and able to admit your pain.
I can easily relate to this poem because of my own father leaving when I was 10. It doesn't hurt as much as it use to, but the pain comes up unexpectedly at times. The best way to cope is to remember that you are going to get through this, as painful or hard as it it. You have always been in my prayers, even more so now.
Dear Lord Jesus, a child of yours is hurting. I pray that you can watch over this strong young woman. Chelsea needs a father, but even more, needs to have you. I pray that she can turn to you also with her problems. If it be in your will, let her father realize his irresponsible ways and hurtful ways, so that he can come back to her and her family. When bitterness or anger approaches Chelsea's heart, I pray she can shun it away, rather then her father. The road of forgiveness is a hard road to turn to, but I pray she can get the strength through her friends, remaining loyal family, and you. Please keep your righteous right hand over her and her family, Lord. I have knowledge of how hard this pain is to face, but please let her realize she is never alone. In Jesus name, Amen.
*God Bless*
Sarah -
hey good poem but i have to say that sayin its only been three weeks and ur not over it is a little weird. my parents have been divorced for 5 years and it still hurts. it always will. good poem and i hope u learn to deal with ur pain even if its by writing poetry.keep writin
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Awww Chels!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Here for ya!!!! All the way BF Keeping you in my prayers GIRLIE..*hugs*and *kisses*
Candi (but some call me DDGIRLIE) -
thank you so much Emily, I really would appreciate all the prayers that I can get. I know that is is going to get easier, yet at times, I just get so depressed. I am trying to forgive him, but it is really hard. Thanks for the comment, and it is good to see you back on here!
*God BLess*
~*Chelsea*~ -
thanks Kim, I know you are. I know that it is hard for you too, and I same the same thing right back to you
~*Chelsea*~
(Your sis) -
Hey Chelsea
Wow great poem once again............You know I know how you feel, so if you ever need to talk you can tell me. I never really knew exactly how hard this was for you till i read this poem
Kimberly
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thank you so much for your comment. I really don't know how I'm going to live like this, it is so hard. There have been so many responsibilities that have come upon me lately, I am so upset that school is going to be over, that is the only thing that really keeps my mind off of the problems here at the house. Also, it helps me keep my mind off of my "real" life when I'm on here. Thanks so much for the comment again
*God Bless*
~*Chelsea*~ -
THREE WEEKS! It's been a whole YEAR AND HALF and I'm not over it yet, I think you have shown incredible strength here. My dad left a year and a half ago, and I'm still not over it. It hurts, and it changes everything. It's not okay, but you can learn to be okay with it. I'm sorry you had to go through that as well, it's something I wouldn't ever wish on anyone. Writing is a good way to vent pain, and most of my earlier stuff is all a result of my parent's divorce. Your write is perfect as raw feeling, structure is overrated (even though a structured poem is my personal preference) I wish you the best throught this, and many writing inspirations! ~Ris
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