I cried myself to sleep
night after night
wondering what I'd done wrong
to make you leave
without a hug or kiss
"Goodbye"
When I was still a child
but not quite a teen
I smiled with salty water running down my face
and asked you "Dad why?"
but still haven't recieved a response
except for silence that's extended
to what seems like
The End of Time
Now at almost twenty
I still bawl when I look back
and see only your outline
because it doesn't hurt as bad
as a matter of fact
Rejection from you is quite common
yet daddy you need to know this also
I've grown into someone
who still cries tears at night
but only when I'm with him
my lover makes me so happy
and you'd have rain clouds too
if you were to meet him
but you never will
because I won't let you
No pap it isn't because I'm afraid
of the possible outcomes
it's because after so many "Why's?"
I am finally going to tell you
"Goodbye" and move on with my life
happy and free
just my 'family' and me
Author notes
This is for my real dad...if you had him in your life you'd understand.
Written May 19th, 2006
A contest entry
- the ordinary and impossible by dreamweaver08.
300 points, ended May 23, 2006, 8 entries
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thank you writer and thank you sharry. i am finally lettin go, though it is hard so very hard. but at least dan loves me and my stepdaddles is there.
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i am sorry that your dad was never there for you. but dan is. and so is your stepdad. i like your family the way it is now. i am glad that you can finally let him go. this was very good. and good luck on the contest my love.
~your sexy angel -
ooooo, i like this very much. i know how it is when your dad isnt there and you always ask yourself what you did wrong when it really wasnt you at all. but, i am glad you have found someone that you really love. great write.
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