Its like a night mare that isn't going to end it seems so real yet so fake. It's like I'm running in place and I don't know why. I just wish I could wake up and it all be over. I wish I could go back in time and change what I said make it normal again make this night mare go away. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up and everything be OK but its never going be this way it's never going to happen! It wasn't OK then and it's not OK now and it won't ever be! No matter what anyone says or does I'll always have to live with this and it's my fault yet I can't take but so much and hold on for so long before I explode and I'm at that point I just wish I could wake up and everything to be gone! All the pain, all the hurt, all the anger, that it would just disappear. But the thing I wish most is that he wouldn't have did it. That he wouldn't have put me in this position in this night mare that I can't wake up from, but he has and its my choice to change it or live with it. It's my choice to make it where my sisters don't have to live through this never ending night mare or not!
Author notes
I just let someone know that i was being raped since i was 11 and well it was my boyfriend and he said sumthing to welfare so now im in a foster home and well its not easy and im trying to figure out how to get out and raise my bros and sisters and alot more so if you have any suggestions let me know... but yeah life hasnt been easy and im going through alot right now and idk what to do but tell me what you think of this poem or writing...
Written May 18th, 2006
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OMG that was really good if u need someone to talk to u can always talk to me!!!!
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thanks for hte comment and well im just waiting
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Wow, this is a great poem and I'm really sorry about having to live in a foster home. I sort of know what you're feeling right now because my older cousin molested me when I was only six years old. I know it's not the same thing as getting raped but I do know what it feels like to be helpless. Great write.
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Wow you really expressed your self with this poem your talent is awesome keep da ink flowin u have awesome work and its beautiful i mean beautiful loved the poem and the way you used your words keep it up way to go bravo bravo awesome poem this poem was Hot off da chain way to go awesome job again wit this poem Bubbles
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omg...hunny im here 4 you!!!!!!!!!!!! im here im here im here! omg my friend whent thro sumthn just like THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if u need nething IM me Elmochips15@aol.com k! im here 4 you! im here im here im here and i want to help!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Strawberries, we are all here for you, I just wish their was more we could do! I have experienced this awful nightmare myself and know what thoughts and feelings are running through your mind and not only have you got that to deal with but you put your trust in someone and now everything is a mess. I told someone about my rape and abuse (a friend from school) and need-less to say the social work and everyone found out. It had always been a secret and then all of a sudden all of my childhood had been dragged up again. I can only imagine the hurt your feeling but believe me when I say it will get better and all of this will have a happy ending! Okay the things that happened will never go away but hunni you might be able to get justice. He should pay for what he has put you through, I know you have a difficult time ahead and I will be here or on msn whenever you want or need to talk! My addy is Gemi_xx@msn.com
Take care of yourself and we will all be thinking of you
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strong write this is some deep and powerful words you write you've expressed you feeling quite well in this poem great job !!! and I wish you all the best..
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Great write I love it. Great job it is so full of emotions and you express them so well. I love all your writes I can connect so well with them. great job and keep it up.
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Vivid and heartbreaking story.
Your writing is wonderful dear. That is never in question. Your health and emotional well-being are my concern. You are so precious to me, and I wish-TRULY- that I had ALL of you with me.
Such a sad tale, brutal...but you are courageous, and I applaud you. Bless your heart.
All my love;
Dad.
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Hey. Great write, I'm here for ya
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Thanks... and im really glad you liked it...
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Strawberrie! I could feel your pain. This is an excellent writing. Once a person has their innocence taken away they are scarred for life. This is something that will never go away. It is not right and it is not fair. We must bring this to the light so that people will think twice about being corruptive. Lovely writing again!
The Brooklyn Six Project™
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