I keep this feeling inside of me, I dont know why, I just do
Its so personal I don't want to share it, not even with you.
It's memories that cloud my mind
that make me the way I am
Somedays I can barely get up because
you were an addiciton,
and
screaming for me to take a dose of you again.
Screaming a desperate desire.
Im poisoned with the past and it haunts every little thing I do.
Nowadays, even though It's not in my veins, a small amount will
always stain them.
The past is not what I truly want,
I want a new beginning.
It's just an addiction, a simple but complex problem.
My soul has been damaged and repair is
a thought, a hope, a dream.
I hate who I am, I dont want to be me.
I feel solitary and alone, although I have all the support in the world.
Nobody really cares, its themselves who matter most.
I can't do my best, It just feels wrong.
I know who I am and I feel so wrong.
I feel broken, and sad, and I want a better day.
Why wont this feeling just go away.
Im tainted in every way, I wish to feel differently.
It's like a cold numbness,
like a chill to the bone.
I think cold thoughts towards the people I love,
I feel as though I myself am a burden.
Its a sick deep whole in my stomach,
like something is tearing apart making the whole bigger and bigger.
With every tear,
It is clawing,
scratching inside of me,
trying to get out.
I want to get out of my head, I need to.
Author notes
Its not able to be explained. This is written on the exact way I felt at the time. It was simply, a bad day.
Written May 13th, 2006
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i dont really see how this relates to the word bank
this sad, im hopeless, kinda poem is so common these days
honestly, i dont want to read another one...
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I really love the emotion and flow in this poem! It rocks. Thank you for entering and good luck
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Wonderful flow to this poem, and with a powerful message as well. You express very strong emotions that I can feel as I read. Great job on this!
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interesting. good emotion and language. please put the option or i will have to dq u (soz gotta b fair to all the contestants) thank you for entering and good luck
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First, let me thank you for entering my contest.
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This poem was very touching. Creative perspective. The flow and imagery was very well done. Good use of language. -
aw sad. i understand the wanting to get out of your own head part. its really hard to do.
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"Somedays I can barely get up because
you were an addiciton,
and
screaming for me to take a dose of you again. "
loved that part!
this was very real and honest. I liked that!
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this is an awsome poem, filled with raw emotions. i lurve it. thanks for entering, & good luck!!
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Amazing.. thanks for entering
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It would make this poem easier to read if you broke up some of your lines. I would show you but I don't want to offend you. You might even have more people read it. But it does seem long in the way you have it formatted.
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thank you for entering and thanks for the great poem.
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