[x]Imaginary.x.Alcoholic.x.Kisses[x] (Very Long Poem)

Drowning in imaginary alcoholic kisses,
Souvenir drops of blood on simple taste buds..
Anger felt so raw and forlorn,
Dripping veins of your deadly poison.
Liquid emotion rising,
Sulphuric acid burns up on my skin..

Tears of cyanide roll down,
Burning trails into my pale skin,
Like venom.
I collapse on my desk;
My music blaring out..
Knock the cider to the floor,
Drowning myself in my misery.

One single can
Of perpetual alcoholic kisses,
Keeps me alive
For one more night..
Constantly here,
Toxins in my blood stream
Until flushed out
By my depression,
An intricate bi-polar nature..

A whirlpool full to the brim:
Of hollow thoughts,
Of emotions gnawing at my inner conscious,
Ferociously slashing more scars,
Eroding the single etched flakes of skin,
Blood pouring down my simple
Fabric arms.

Sugar sprinkled skies..
Glittering stars of selfishness,
Like the herbs of witches,
And the cocaine of drug addicts..

Silken secrets like cotton candy,
Woven intricately.
Cascading scarlet rage, intensifying.


Surrounded by safe sorrow.
That pain that pinches me awake,
From this ethereal nightmare..
Eternally stalking my spirit.

This kaleidoscopic view,
A polluted vision of the world:
As if happiness exists.
Such a fake facade
Blinding us to reality..

Scrambling our sights,
Fragments of oblivion,
Surface tension of my tears..


A single tear drop of my alcoholic kiss
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 Until it smashes,
Melting into my skin.

,d,r,i,p,

I cannot waste this single kiss,
Lapping it from the crimson
s.p.l.a.t.t.e.r.s on my wrist.

Nothing hurts..
As it falls,
Causing acidic holes to erase my skin
My legacy.

Exposed and naked to those eyes,
Eloquent hatred seen by all..
A laced web of silken lies
Formed from fallen drops of eyeliner.

Lip-gloss shattered mirrors,
Poison by an imaginary
Alcoholic kiss..

Microscopic tendencies
Observe details of fallen glass..
Drops of liquid salt
Upon shattered memories..

Tears forever lingering
On subtle cheeks of makeup;
Hiding emotions felt deep inside….

Faded, collapsed time,
No longer ticking away..

Stitched up fluids of aqueous broken glass.
Toxic, flawed and unfurled..

But solid and suspended in mid-air
Like these drips of liquefied pain.
This salty solution of feelings.


Eyes bursting with tears that can't fall,
So here they release from the tip of my pen..


The pretty crystal shining,
Light refracting,
Shimmering in it's reflection
In the watery liquid of my tears.

As I say goodbye,
Tears finally fall
Freely from my blood shot eyes.
A bright flash
Like lightening,
In the darkened abyss of my room.

Deceptive cascades:
Of rolling tears;
Of dropping bombs.

Shadows of my eyes,
Under-lining eyeliner stains.

Colour leaves my vision,
Only grey-scale surrounds..

The world in black and white
A Technicolor monochrome.

Just like a 1940's movie
Same old story line
On repeat
…..same old story line
…..on repeat
……………..same old story line
……………..on repeat
same old story line
on repeat
…..same old story line
…..on repeat
……………..same old story line
……………..on repeat

...on repeat…

So monotonous,
It haunts my mind..
My dreams..
My life..

Suffering to silently as these pills start to take effect..
Slow my heart rate,
Kill me off,
Clot my blood,
Until I choke on it..
Spit it out,
Throw it up.
Red paint drops creating puddles on the floor,
Ripples of time forever waiting in suspension..


Blurred and unfocused
From a new perspective,
Simple sketches of life
In monochrome and crayon,
Like a child’s view..
Such a beautiful setting,
A set-up of lies,
Fabricated into memories and minds.

A butterfly in a hurricane.
No chance of survival..
This is my inner child
In this life..

Smashed and fragmented,
Broken and shattered.
Hating and lost,
Torn and battered..

~*~^~*~

So here I rest
In pain,
This bliss.
All because of your betrayal
And that fake facade..
That alcoholic kiss…

Lay lily’s on her coffin,
Vampiric tendencies..
Engulf innocent minds
Forgotten children weep,
For a life never lived.

That of the < heart-broken </3 silken rose,
The tattered doll with broken toes..

Alcoholic kiss
Numb my emotions
For the one
Who causes me to feel true bliss..
Eternal happiness.
He can’t hold me
So here’s to you,
My alcoholic kiss,
Venom fading from my lips.

~*~^~*~

The wind tearing roughly at my skin,
Sheets of fake emotions,
Torn away by relentless air..

Obscured sights;
A simple glance:
See the paranoid panorama through this
Perpetual periscope of my eyes.

Obsessive compulsive life begins..
This death has just enfolded,
Like buttercup kisses and a lilac embrace.

Expired moments of this insomnia..
How complex this denial feels to me,
Yet still so true..

Send out tentative tentacles:
Infect me with your disease,
Plague me with your germs..

Dance like a dead girl,
Eyes like ice, heart on fire,
As the ribbon trails
From the path blazed by
Misanthropic twirls.

Disgraceful thoughts:

________________* Unsuitable for my inner child,
________________ My little charm now lost in the cruel world.
________________ Alone and hated for who she is.

________________*Of insanity and murderous acts.
________________Crime of passion
________________Shells of former loves,
________________Former lives and losses.


The emptiness echoing around me,
Sound like silence in the whispering wind..

Vision clouded with thoughts so bitter,
Simple sadistic splatters..
My eyes see death,
Dark blackness surrounds in this pit of everlasting hell;
Despairingly looking out on life,
With such a bleak outlook,
Upon such a beautiful silken rose.

Cuts creating masterpieces,
Artwork on the body
Of fragmented lies and forgotten cries……..
[So in tune, chiming within your own screams for help,
yours shouts clinging to past attempts to find attention]

Engraved thoughts,
Set my soul free.
My spirit tied so tight,
Ropes twisted,
Caught in my web of lies,
Cutting into my skin,
Burning it raw.

Like a bleeding supernova of starlit space,
Cloud formations searching forever more,
For one last love
To save me from myself
Before..

i .c.r.a.c.k..


The words of inspirational thoughts
Flow melodramatically to this helpless mind.

Head [ decapitated] from this bruised body,
These linking words like daisy chains,
Make no sense to me…

Blocking out this voice of a paranoid panorama,
Drowning in seductive crimson kisses of this razor blade.
Temptation serving a fallen angel,
A single eclipse of the sun..

Head spinning so wildly
The slightest movement causes the world to shake..
An inner earthquake..

Velvet velocity
Unnoticed by others.

A single shake,
Shingles on the sand..
A beach so warm and calm,
Not in my mind..
Hurricane strikes,
My body flying
Into a slashed out rock,
Tearing my frail skin,
Ripping out my insides..
Who will notice?
Who will see?
They're all blind
To the child of me.


..This catastrophe has only begun..



Moods forever fluctuating,
My mind unravelling for all to see,
Like the heart of a weak/ child.

Deceitful and decaying heart
Loves no more.
~Heartbreak~
A fractured mind,
With split personalities..

The delicate inner lining
Of an intricately woven,
Yet invisible heart..

Shattered heart pieces,
Fall to the death..
Drowning in the air
Of pure confetti conflict..

Set my heart on fire
As the witches curse
Burning.. Upon a stake..


.x. I've broken heartbreak .x.

A poisonous kisses' aftertaste;
Venom that doth hang from these simple lies,
Innocently awaiting it's next victim..
Lush veins coursing through coarse white skin
Smooth and silken,
Pale and unnoticed.

Take another swig
Of the life force,
Blood all drained..
Those worthless alcoholic kisses barely keeping me alive..
Suffocating on this air of cleanliness…

Dripping veins of your deadly poison,
Save your antidote.
Let me drain,
Fallen in your arms,
Collapsing lungs,
Scarcely breathing..

Alcoholic kisses,
Butterfly wings.
Eternal screams,
Forlorn child sings.


Now the effects are finally fading..
From this,

.x.Alcoholic.x.Kiss.x