Desperately clinging to mental illusions of truth
Held back by fear while continually being taunted
Singular journey riddled with repeated internal battles
Consciously choosing to evade decisions for self healing
Eclipsing apprehensiveness restricting growth of spirituality
Bombarding the heart and soul with uncertainty of ones self
Scrambling through a labyrinth of animosity and perplexity
Relentlessly scouring for justification of current situations
Emotional battle scars deepening with torturous flashbacks
Images decaying within the mind locking one in purgatory
Intestines agonizingly knotted with utter self skepticism
Illuminations of inner faith, dormant beneath deceptive veils
Masquerading the depth of distress from prying eyes
Portraying a sense of symmetry that is nonexistent
Externally projecting delight while internally sobbing
Disallowing the escape of a loathsome factualness
Attempting to shield ones self from continual tribulations
only further hinders ones ability for self expansion


















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