I've fallen down before
But will I do it again?
My hands were tied before
Back in those days when
I called for death's embrace
All around me faces taunting
'You're never gonna be anything'
I've come so far
From sickness and sorrow
Much sadness has graced me since
Yet I did nothing
Like what I had before
But still the demon remains
Slowly crawling inside
Begging to return to strength
Please, anyone else but me
With this, I can't ever be anything
Stepping back and forward
Not knowing which way to turn
My frightened mind forgets
How to refuse and resist
The temptation to let go
Getting over the madness, and
The strain of self-persecution
Is an hourly battle of rights
I am winning the fight
But is it only for now?
The bell tolls once, and once again
My time is up, my number's called
The hour has come for my resubmission
Situations arise, yet I am stronger
I may be falling, but my hands are no longer tied...
I have fallen many times before
I will not fall down again
Author notes
Written on 10th May 2006 at 00:29
I was feeling afraid of falling into depression again. But while I was writing, I realised that I am no longer in that frame of mind, no longer prone to falling into pits of despair. Since I stopped counselling nearly a year ago, I've felt myself reacting differently to certain situations. Before, I would have cracked under the strain, but now I think rationally and don't allow myself to get as worked up. I guess it's finally over. I am over the madness, over the strain.
Written May 9th, 2006
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- Be Reborn by Raven Tears.
480 points, ended November 27, 2006, 9 entries
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Depression is sometimes the result of chemical imbalance in the brain and can be helped, if not healed. Diet, exercise and plenty of rest will do wonders for it, as does a change of scenery or at least, a change of perspective. Music will often soothe us from our sorrows, as well. Congratulations on winning the gold trophy with this penning. Good luck in the contest, Poet. 
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Great write, thank you so much for entering my contest and good luck
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nice and deep, strong with metaphors. Thanks for the author notes they really helped me understand. Congratulations on the gold too. Thank you for entering the contest.
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Oh, wow!! I absolutely love this! This is exactly where I am in life right now! I have come out the other side of depression and I am stronger, but there is still this fear I have that it will return and I won't be able to stop it...that it will be worse next time...Anyway, this hits home, and you express it so well, its unbelievable! your my hero!! LOL
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bravo on the depth of your verse shared and on the encouragement it contains.
well done.
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Your pieces of self-triumph are sensational. I can see your inner strength here in your writing. If you ever feel yourself slipping, read this piece, and remind yourself of how far you have come..
Yours,
Kain
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Your poem is worthy of applause.
You have a special gift to write.
Well done.
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I can relate to this great piece.
Your emotions were deep but inspiring to read.
Stay strong, I experieced the same and here I stand reading your write and sharing my writings to the world and telling my story.
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I have fallen many times before
I will not fall down again
this part of the poem wakes me up and gives me strength..thanks for such a nice poem..i enjoyed every single line of this poem. keep up the good work cuz u know u do have talents! GOOD POEM! -
Very goood. I relate to this poem a lot. And the very end of it is inspirering.
"I have fallen many times before
I will not fall down again "
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Thank you for the message of hope, and good luck in the contest.
Yes, it is so true that we are strenghtened by our experiences, and able to confront situations, that once would have defeated us. Great job! -
good job here
who hasn't expierenced this
to feel totally fearful of making the same mistakes
i loved the way you narrated this
i was able to pick up the gist from the word go
very good piece here
peace and love
jamila -
shows you have strength. good write on this one.
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i know what you mean this is all painful and true but i still love the poem
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this was an eloquuent write about getting back up and starting anew...peace ad many good inks in the future shzoosy
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AMAZING
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A very powerful and creative write.
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very positive poem, i think this will help alot of people
i'm sure others have gone through this as well, stay strong, and you will make it!! thanks for sharing!! -
supurb
This is a beautiful piece. It shows how even when we fix something, it isn't all the way gone. BUT we learn from it. When we lose, we must remember the lesson. Now the hands are not tied. Now the character can catch themselves.
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me likie big time
*runs away to a coke machine for caffinated refreshment* *it's very very hot in work atm.
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Laura, Dear, this is an amazingly wonderful piece! You absolutely should feel good about writing this. To overcome one's trials in life is always a great accomplishment, and many have had to do so but with such a tremendous victory. Obviously, you are one of that wonderfully elite group.
BRAVO! Love, Mom ♥
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I love the strength of this poem! It is amazingly penned... I thought it was creative and personal. It was a very powerful read
Thank you for sharing
Melanie
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I like this alot. It reminds me of a friend of mine that needs help, I'd like to show it to her.
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The ending of this poem was really powerful and really made me look over it again. throughout the whole thing it seems to be leaning back and forth, but then it just makes it mind. nice poem.
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i like it
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i like how this piece started bot hopeful and doubtful, with you not wanting to fall but not sure of yourself on whether or not that would happen again. and the finish of being certain you wouldn't fall made this a great poem to read.
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This describes so well the clarity one feels once coming to a realization of the illness. I have survived it as well, and you did a wonderful job capturing these emotions. No one can really ever understand it if they have not been there, and I so wish that others can escape this hell as you did!!
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The bell tolls once, and once again
My time is up, my number's called
The hour has come for my resubmission
Situations arise, yet I am stronger
I may be falling, but my hands are no longer tied...
I have fallen many times before
I will not fall down again
Truely it is very struggling exercise and every word is representing the strggle as well..A great work indeed...
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To me, this is a very powerful write... I really enjoyed it and it really did make me stop and think... Good luck with the contest you've entered and i will definately have a look at your other writes.
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Thank you.
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this poem is amazing! it flows great and shows a lot of emotion! thank you for entering and good luck!
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