What am I supposed to be?
I can’t stand the way you tear at me!
Why have you come to pray upon me?
Have I been bad ?
Have I done something wrong?
Is there flaw in my dysfunctional little song?
I suck from the milkless tit of my foster mother
Never to understand that I don’t really love her
How is it that I manage to stab me in the back?
Ever time I look around paranoia is all I have to react
My heart is an ocean blackened with sin
Jaded with passions I can never relieve
My minds filled with past times I wish to ignore
Why can’t these thoughts just leave me to die??
I can’t stand running around like a fucking chicken with my head cut off!!
It hurts too much to allow myself the ignorance
To kill myself one step at a time
Why can’t I forgive myself for all I’ve done
My past is behind me
Yet it stabs at the back of my mind
Taunting me with riddles and allusions to my life
Saying that my happiness was never real
Laughing every single night
Haven’t I suffered enough with all the shit they give me?
I have to live with these voices in my head so fucking overwhelming
Shut Up.. SHuT UP I sAY!!! Stop screaming at me !!!
I am not perfect.. I AM NoT PeRFEcT!!
Just leave me alone
All the things you say to me drive me from my soul
Forcing me to leave this earth
All of this is foreign!
So unreal to me that I force myself on the knife
Why couldn’t you just leave me alone
Let me live in peace
Instead you pushed my to this point
Then laughed at my defeat
Author notes
This is an old piece and one of my favorites of my work. I want you to be critical. Please no flattery at all even if you like the piece. If you don't all the better, slander away.
Written August 20th, 2004
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AH! Thank you so much for bringing that to my attention. That was a typo. Thank you again. Glad you liked it.
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so much emotion
Have I don’t something wrong?
is this what you ment or is it a mistake?
other then that I think it is very good
and thanks for commenting on mine -
No slander. The emotions are strong in this. Some of your lines are extremely long. Meter is what makes the write flow. You need to have lines that keep some sort of pattern, but they are all different. This works a little, but after a while the seem to become a distraction. This only needs a little tweaking to be really good. This is something I can understand very well. Good job, The Shaker
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