Apathy Doesn’t Give Good Company

Longing for some other body
To feel it pressed into me
I can’t tell if this is honesty
Or if this is more about you than about me
Tonight ten minutes feels like decades
Swimming through these memories I’ve locked away
I’m forgetting everything, diving in head first
I can’t come out on the other end feeling any worse

And let's look to the sky
It’ll tell you where this will end
And if all the stars shine
It means let's just relive this once again

Longing for someone with a set of black lungs
With an ego that’s equally as crushed
Someone with those hangover eyes
That speaks everything on my mind
Apathy doesn’t give good company
But honestly, I’m done with honesty
But I’ll settle for a “cheer up kid,
It’s only ever as bad as you make it”

And let's look to the sky
It’ll tell you where this will end
And if all the stars shine
It means let's just relive this once again

I can’t tell if I’m sad because I’m drunk
Or if I’m drunk because I’m sad
Dreaming up scenarios for us
To reenact everything we’ve had
This all looks and feels so fucking vivid
Sure, I may have been alone
But it sure as hell didn’t feel like it
But it sure as hell wasn't home

So let's look to the sky
It’ll tell you where this will end
And if all the stars shine
It means let's just relive this once again

Sometimes I pretend that you’re still here
With eyes that are so much more than spheres
And it’s just cold enough to sting our lungs
it lets you know when enough's enough