Why should I rely on you?

There’s something missing in this life,
There’s something that can’t be undone.
I want to break you down so badly,
Now that I can see all that you’ve done.
There’s things I feel, and things I’m missing,
Things that I can’t find here now.
Things I know you’ve taken from me,
And thing’s that I don’t want to know.
How do you know how to do this to me?
How do you make me fall to my knees?
How do you know how to bring me down?
How do you take things so breathlessly?
How do you make things feel so easy?
How do you make me feel so safe?
When all the while I know I’m not,
But you make me feel like I’m okay,
When I know you’re lying every day.
There’s times I cry and wish you were here,
But times I die when you get near.
That’s why I’m not leaning on you,
All the things I know that you do,
That’s why I’m not trusting in you,
I know you won’t carry me through,
Why should I rely on you?
I know that you won’t carry through,
Why should I rely on you?