Getting Over It With Christ

5 years ago:

QUIT TOUCHING ME!!!
I'M NOT YOUR PORNO DOLL!!!
I'M JUST A 13 YEAR OLD GIRL!!!
WHO'S ABOUT TO FALL!!!

CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
I HATE YOU FOR HURTING ME!!!
I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!!!
THESE THOUGHT'S YOU'VE PROVOKED CAN'T YOU SEE!!!

I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!!
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO A MERE CHILD!?!?!?
YOU'RE AN OLD MAN!!!
SO WHY TOUCH ME, YOU ASS WHOLE, MY MOM'S OBLIVIOUS TO THE PAIN YOU'VE RILED!!!

I ALWAYS FEEL THAT I MUST DIE!!!
SO I CUT AND SLICE MY WRISTS!!!
TO GET RID OF THE PAIN!!!
'CAUSE NOW I'M PISSED!!!

YOU DIRTY OLD DISGUSTING MAN!!!
HOW COULD YOU MOLEST A LITTLE GIRL!?!?!?
I HAVE TO DIE!!!
MY MIND IS OVER DRUGGED I'M IN A WHIRL!!!

Today:

I'm out of that house,
and now I've found God, and am at peace;
I'm calmer now
although I'll never regain that broken piece.

I forgive you for the pain you have caused
because I realize Jesus suffered more;
than I could ever know
I no longer think of it as my fault, I'm no longer what you called me "the whore"

I have given myself up to Christ
which is more than what I can say for you;
I wish I could help you get past your sickness
but I need help too.

I don't feel as much pain
I'm less suicidal now;
I feel that I'm healing
It's Jesus, that's how.

I just wanted you to know
your face no longer haunts me;
when I go to sleep
it's Christ's face that I see.