When I look in your eyes,
It angers me so,
Because I cant be the one,
To tell you what you want to hear,
To tell you what you once did fear.
And to share with you,
My lies of the past,
My mistakes and regrets,
Of what troubles me,
And of what will last.
Because I can't,
Deny the truth,
That something weird ,
And of something new.
Has occurred within my life,
And I can't control the feeling,
That its unmistakeably you.
For if I remember,
That day you said,
The dog humped the couch,
And you kissed the cat,
I believe I would have lost,
This feeling today,
If only I wasn't confused
And wanted to stay.
If only I could see,
That this wasn't meant to be.
Then I could move on and live,
For you are stopping me.
From feeling the truth of being,
Who I am meant to be.
And every fate,
That tugs and pulls,
I laugh it off,
As if I never could.
AS if its a lie to what I feel,
And how I could let you,
Fall threw my fingers as quick as silk.
For the battle I know and the battle I feel,
Is something of a war because in the end,
I will lose.
And you will see,
That I am not,
What I appear to be.
Author notes
I dont know what to say. I dont care if you think this is weird becasue this is exactly how I feel. Like Im Alice in wonderland and Am tumbling and begging to get lost because if I follow this guy than I surely wil becasue Im already at the door to thick and thin.
Written April 20th, 2006
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I love it, it's amazing and so much of how I feel so often!! I can relate to so many of your feelings in here, there's so much confusion and overanalyzing, sometimes, maybe too often, I wonder what the heck is wrong with me and think, maybe I should go talk to someone and calm this chaos in my brain. It's not like raging mad chaos, I'm not psychotic or anything, just wondering why I feel and think the way I do sometimes
Thanks for the thought provoking words! Real honest feelings could never be weird I don't think!
Michele
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