Oysters and Me

I think I swallowed a grain of sand.

Maybe.

It’s frustrating. And confusing.
And it makes me wanna run upstairs and find its off switch.

Because it’s daily...
This clashing against something inside me,
This erosion of my sanity.

It’s like an invisible battle with real people.
And real consequences.
And desire.

I look at everyone else,
And I think they’ve swallowed it, too.

Sometimes it hurts.

But I keep my sword sharp,
Because if I can fight it...

Someday I will be opened,
And after years of frustration
From a single grain of sand,
A pearl will have been formed.

Oysters and me...
We’re fighting the sand,
Waiting for this pearl called purity.

Author notes

Basically, it’s about lust. Youthful desires. Impure thoughts. You know, the three-letter “S” word. And right now, it’s not a cool thing to deal with. Sometimes I don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want to fight it day after day. But then I remember... someday, when I’m married, it’ll be this treasure, this pearl. And it will be worth it. True love definitely waits.
Written April 20th, 2006